Last Saturday, She said she will never call me or even sms me anymore. However, this morning suddenly received a msg from her again. Of course, all the content inside the msg is never can be sweet content anymore.. She said she will leave Jusco, never come back again.. and she wish me all the best on my career. Well, i just replied her with thank you lohh...
About 6pm, when i using the printer to printing my ordering check list in the office, suddenly was saw her appears at the photostat machine. The distance between us is quite near. I was give her a glance, but she didnt aware of i looking at her.. Well, suddenly a colleague from another department, he suddenly came over to me.. and he also waiting for the printing of his check list on that moment. Thus, i was turn my side to him and chit chat with him and didnt look at Her again...
Tonite about 9pm, she was sms me again.. She said : Are u still in the office now..? dont stay too long in the office, A msg from a concern colleague." Well, her msg content was suddenly warm... but suddenly made me felt so cold..! She called me again after i replied her msg. But she was didnt talked too much to me when on the phone.. Hence, i called her back with my phone.. And then i noticed that she is still havent leave the office yet, she said she still waiting " him" come to fetch her home at that time.. Wow.. really can't believe i was saw her left the office at 7.30pm just now, while i left office at 8pm... i already reached home and eating my mom cooked gourmet already, but she still at outside now.
She was cried again when i talked to her on the phone, duno whats happened to her and him just now.. suddenly will sms me again since she said she will never write me any msg again.. Quite curious to her, i asked her.. but she dont wish to tell me...
She off her phone totally.. made me can't call her anymore. But i still keep calling her non-stop. Coz i worrying that she is still at outside now...WEll, after she got back to home, she opened her phone again. I was succeed to called her agagin... And i was talked to her for 15 mins, then i ensure that she is safe now.. then only i close my phone.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Break Up..!
Finally, i HAD spoke to her today that i wants to stop my relationship with her. Well, i know i hurted her deeply today. But i have no choice , just can do it like this to her. Its because of Short pain is even better than long pain. If i didn't stop my relationship with her, i will always felt so uncomfortable and duno why many time i was felt jealous suddenly because that i'm the second place in her heart, not the first place. Well, who is can really tahan for always being the second place in your most lovely person's heart leh../?
She will accompany "him" to a seminar in subang Sheraton hotel. She told me that she will going to stay a nite in the hotel with him on that day, second day then only coming back. Today i was feeling frustrating... so desperate to see her immediately, however she just can said Sorry to me that she not allow to accompany me for today... Well, i started to felt that if your gal friend telling you that she cant accompany you when the time that you need her the most, because of she want to accompany to another guy for that day... what do you think you will do..? Of course, i felt so disappointed to her but i never dare to tell her straight about my feeling... even though i felt angry with her, but i never will blame on her as well... i dont even dare to scold at her.. maybe this is what i already love her so much gua,,,! tak sampai hati to shout at her also...
12.40pm, Noon, Saturday..She was replied me with her sms, saying that today is her last msg to me, and she will never msg me anymore in future.. Hmm..! feeling quite pain when hearing she msg me like this,,, but, this means she absolutely had agreed to stop her relationship with me now.. maybe this is a good news also... perhaps i dont need to everytime when think of her one time, and my heart will feel pain for one time. And she also dont need to force herself to make a decision for a dillemma situation as well..
Anyway, i would wish "her" & " him" can happy forever... never ever will appear a third person like such of me to interrupt their life in future again.. GOD BLESSING..
Begins from today onwards, i would start up my new life with myself already... never go to think about What" Love".." Love" .."Love" anymore.. experienced one time already, not dare to begins another again so promptly now... maybe i should give myself a break to think what is my plan for the future.. WEll, my current job scope is so harder for me, sometimes it can made me can't even breath also... THe most important should i think currently is to think how and find out what are the solution to make my career better...
feelin- Despair..!
She will accompany "him" to a seminar in subang Sheraton hotel. She told me that she will going to stay a nite in the hotel with him on that day, second day then only coming back. Today i was feeling frustrating... so desperate to see her immediately, however she just can said Sorry to me that she not allow to accompany me for today... Well, i started to felt that if your gal friend telling you that she cant accompany you when the time that you need her the most, because of she want to accompany to another guy for that day... what do you think you will do..? Of course, i felt so disappointed to her but i never dare to tell her straight about my feeling... even though i felt angry with her, but i never will blame on her as well... i dont even dare to scold at her.. maybe this is what i already love her so much gua,,,! tak sampai hati to shout at her also...
12.40pm, Noon, Saturday..She was replied me with her sms, saying that today is her last msg to me, and she will never msg me anymore in future.. Hmm..! feeling quite pain when hearing she msg me like this,,, but, this means she absolutely had agreed to stop her relationship with me now.. maybe this is a good news also... perhaps i dont need to everytime when think of her one time, and my heart will feel pain for one time. And she also dont need to force herself to make a decision for a dillemma situation as well..
Anyway, i would wish "her" & " him" can happy forever... never ever will appear a third person like such of me to interrupt their life in future again.. GOD BLESSING..
Begins from today onwards, i would start up my new life with myself already... never go to think about What" Love".." Love" .."Love" anymore.. experienced one time already, not dare to begins another again so promptly now... maybe i should give myself a break to think what is my plan for the future.. WEll, my current job scope is so harder for me, sometimes it can made me can't even breath also... THe most important should i think currently is to think how and find out what are the solution to make my career better...
feelin- Despair..!
Friday, June 27, 2008
struggle with my life..!
Recently quite struggling to myself, i struggle to my work, i struggle to my life, i struggle to my love path as well. Everyday is stayed in the office for my work until very late then only can go home. Since Wayne had left AEON.CO, my job is getting harder and difficult now. Even though, i would still push myself to finish all the task as much as i could. Sometimes, i will feel tiring and sleepy when i'm work alone in the office till so late.
Most of the time when i felt stressing or feel tiring, i would suddenly think of "Her" on my mind, and i found myself so..so..so.. desperating to see her immediately everytime when i thinking of her. However, i cannot sms her... i cannot call her....and i can't even can see her when the time i need her.. this kind of feeling is.. unusual... uncomfortable... and feeling like so painful in my heart..
She said dont sms her and dont even can call her if she stay at home.. WEll, sometimes i will accidentally sms her without aware that she is staying at home.. Then, she will comes to remind me on the second day when she see me in the office..She said : " why you suddenly sms me ? luckily is i holding the phone, if let "him" saw your msg, then it must be terrible already.." Urghh,,! when the time i heard she saying like such... my heart is feeling.. so pain.. so pain...so pain...! But i can't show her my sadness face..!
You know..! when the time you listen to your most lover person who telling you all this thing... will you can just feels like nothing.. and never be feel sad on all this words saying...? I think there is 10 out 10 person i ask... all ten will answer me the same loh..! WHo can tahan..?
I still remember the Monday nite, i worked until 10pm in the office, going back very late. When i on my way going home on the MRRII highway, " She " was suddenly sms me again that she still havent had her dinner yet on that time.. Well, i quite surprise that every monday she will go to her Spanish language class until 8.30pm, and then she and "him" will go for dinner together normally.. but duno why she was called me suddenly.. When i received her sms, i straight away called her back to ask her "why..? From the phone, i was heard she crying.. and her voice is heard differently on that time... She didnt talk too much with me on the phone, she said she hope to see me on that moment, hence i just turned my way to Cheras again...
When i get to her house, she is still with the morning office dressing... i quite surprise that so late already but she is still havent taken her shower yet.. When she get into my car, and i looked at her.. and tried to ask her whats happening with her just now..! When she answering my question, she was started crying again, i holding tight to her hand, and keep giving her my condolance...!
I duno why, every time when she quarrel with "him", and when she is need me, i will definitely didnt think so much, straight away go to find her and accompany her.. However, most of the time when i need her the most, but she will never can right beside me or sms with me.. feeling heart pain.. I always struggle myself, maybe this is the time to release her now, dont keep continue with this kind of relationship with her anymore.. Coz i found myself is really really really cannot tahan again.. everytime when i think of her but she wasn't beside of me, i would never can felt comfortable with that kind of feeling on this...
As i said, many time i was tried to tell her that i dont want to continue this kind of relationship with her anymore, but she always treating it like i simply saying only.. and she will never want me to give up to her so easily... Nonetheless, she is never can make any decision whether she would choose who... Everytime when she quarrel with "him", and she will definitely tell me that she dont want to continue her relationship with " him" anymore since he keep on hurted her so deeply. Then after this, she will tell me alot of her plan that how would she living without him in the coming days.. and she said she dont want to go back to him again. Then, i am keep thinking how to help her on everything if she need my hand.. But at the end, she will still going back to him, at the end she still can tahan with what "he" did on her, she still can treating like nothing was happens before..
Urrghh,,! I was found myself given "her" so many chances already, she only will find me when she is quarrel with "him", and she only will find me when " he" is not around.. Nevertheless, i never wish i want this to myself anymore, i hope my most lovely one can find me anytime, she can always around me , she can always beside me... and i also can find her anytime when i want to need her..!
feelin- tightly
I really getting tiring and no more energetic on playing this kind of 3 person game again, maybe i should give myself a break now... i dont wish to continue anymore.......................Give Up..!! "ting".. "ting"
Most of the time when i felt stressing or feel tiring, i would suddenly think of "Her" on my mind, and i found myself so..so..so.. desperating to see her immediately everytime when i thinking of her. However, i cannot sms her... i cannot call her....and i can't even can see her when the time i need her.. this kind of feeling is.. unusual... uncomfortable... and feeling like so painful in my heart..
She said dont sms her and dont even can call her if she stay at home.. WEll, sometimes i will accidentally sms her without aware that she is staying at home.. Then, she will comes to remind me on the second day when she see me in the office..She said : " why you suddenly sms me ? luckily is i holding the phone, if let "him" saw your msg, then it must be terrible already.." Urghh,,! when the time i heard she saying like such... my heart is feeling.. so pain.. so pain...so pain...! But i can't show her my sadness face..!
You know..! when the time you listen to your most lover person who telling you all this thing... will you can just feels like nothing.. and never be feel sad on all this words saying...? I think there is 10 out 10 person i ask... all ten will answer me the same loh..! WHo can tahan..?
I still remember the Monday nite, i worked until 10pm in the office, going back very late. When i on my way going home on the MRRII highway, " She " was suddenly sms me again that she still havent had her dinner yet on that time.. Well, i quite surprise that every monday she will go to her Spanish language class until 8.30pm, and then she and "him" will go for dinner together normally.. but duno why she was called me suddenly.. When i received her sms, i straight away called her back to ask her "why..? From the phone, i was heard she crying.. and her voice is heard differently on that time... She didnt talk too much with me on the phone, she said she hope to see me on that moment, hence i just turned my way to Cheras again...
When i get to her house, she is still with the morning office dressing... i quite surprise that so late already but she is still havent taken her shower yet.. When she get into my car, and i looked at her.. and tried to ask her whats happening with her just now..! When she answering my question, she was started crying again, i holding tight to her hand, and keep giving her my condolance...!
I duno why, every time when she quarrel with "him", and when she is need me, i will definitely didnt think so much, straight away go to find her and accompany her.. However, most of the time when i need her the most, but she will never can right beside me or sms with me.. feeling heart pain.. I always struggle myself, maybe this is the time to release her now, dont keep continue with this kind of relationship with her anymore.. Coz i found myself is really really really cannot tahan again.. everytime when i think of her but she wasn't beside of me, i would never can felt comfortable with that kind of feeling on this...
As i said, many time i was tried to tell her that i dont want to continue this kind of relationship with her anymore, but she always treating it like i simply saying only.. and she will never want me to give up to her so easily... Nonetheless, she is never can make any decision whether she would choose who... Everytime when she quarrel with "him", and she will definitely tell me that she dont want to continue her relationship with " him" anymore since he keep on hurted her so deeply. Then after this, she will tell me alot of her plan that how would she living without him in the coming days.. and she said she dont want to go back to him again. Then, i am keep thinking how to help her on everything if she need my hand.. But at the end, she will still going back to him, at the end she still can tahan with what "he" did on her, she still can treating like nothing was happens before..
Urrghh,,! I was found myself given "her" so many chances already, she only will find me when she is quarrel with "him", and she only will find me when " he" is not around.. Nevertheless, i never wish i want this to myself anymore, i hope my most lovely one can find me anytime, she can always around me , she can always beside me... and i also can find her anytime when i want to need her..!
feelin- tightly
I really getting tiring and no more energetic on playing this kind of 3 person game again, maybe i should give myself a break now... i dont wish to continue anymore.......................Give Up..!! "ting".. "ting"
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Heavy tasking
feeling so tired this few days.. everyday is work until 9pm to 10pm then only can go home. Since my senior had leave the company on last Friday, thus my job is getting more and more now..Everything have to follow up with my own. Last time if i cannot finish so many task in one day, my senior will do it himself. But now, he had left already, hence i have no one can help me now.. everything have to do it by my own in the coming days. Currently i'm still new in the company.. then many works i'm not really can settle it so quickly, i have to take more time to finish all the task in the office... all my team members is work until 8.30pm, but i should work until 10pm lohh.. Urghh..! very tiring.. so tiring... super tiring... cannot tahan..
feelin-yawning
feelin-yawning
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Never can understand what she thinking of..!
When i on my way going home from office at 10pm, suddenly received a sms from her again, she said she still havent eat dinner, and she want me to have dinner with her.. hence i turn my way back towards to cheras from Ampang. I was thinking why suddenly she will call me up to go for dinner with her when the time is so late already.
When i reached her there, i was saw her standing beside the street, she told me that she had quarrel again with Him, he was just leave her one person there, and he is went out to somewhere else already.. Wow..! how can this fella did this to Her so ungentlemen. Well, she request of me to bring her go out to find him. She said she want to see what he did at outside, and she want to ask him to go home if she get him from the outside..
I dunno why i so busy body, and i was really drove my car all the way out to help her to find Him. We been to the cheras area' nite Pub, and then she is looking around him over that area. However, we couldn't get him also, and then she tried called to "his" friends to ask where is him. And his friend told her that they had changed their place to second round at Karaoke in leisure mall already.. But suddenly said they are in the Cafe which located behind the Maluri Jusco there.. Urgghh,..! what the hell with this fella.. simply simply point us the way... this fella tot we are stupid , he tot we will let him to simply playing fool around on us..!
Finally, we couldn't get where is him also, on that time she was feeling tiring & sleepy already, hence i just sent her home without have our dinner anymore. After i sent her home, then i just go home as well. When i passedby the mamak stall outside the bus terminal , then i just stopped there to had a Roti Planta and a glass of Teh Ais with alone. The time is too late already, hence i didnt eat too much or too heavy , coz i want to sleep already mahh..! And she was just had a cup of CUP MEE at her home alone also.
Suddenly she sms me again that she can't sleep, then she wish to hear my voice on that moment, so i was called her with my handset during the lately nite. I talked to her on the phone, she is still feeling so sad on that moment, thus i keep on console her from the phone. I was talked to her about 20 minutes, then she is fall asleep suddenly... then i just stop my conversation..and go to my bed also!
When i reached her there, i was saw her standing beside the street, she told me that she had quarrel again with Him, he was just leave her one person there, and he is went out to somewhere else already.. Wow..! how can this fella did this to Her so ungentlemen. Well, she request of me to bring her go out to find him. She said she want to see what he did at outside, and she want to ask him to go home if she get him from the outside..
I dunno why i so busy body, and i was really drove my car all the way out to help her to find Him. We been to the cheras area' nite Pub, and then she is looking around him over that area. However, we couldn't get him also, and then she tried called to "his" friends to ask where is him. And his friend told her that they had changed their place to second round at Karaoke in leisure mall already.. But suddenly said they are in the Cafe which located behind the Maluri Jusco there.. Urgghh,..! what the hell with this fella.. simply simply point us the way... this fella tot we are stupid , he tot we will let him to simply playing fool around on us..!
Finally, we couldn't get where is him also, on that time she was feeling tiring & sleepy already, hence i just sent her home without have our dinner anymore. After i sent her home, then i just go home as well. When i passedby the mamak stall outside the bus terminal , then i just stopped there to had a Roti Planta and a glass of Teh Ais with alone. The time is too late already, hence i didnt eat too much or too heavy , coz i want to sleep already mahh..! And she was just had a cup of CUP MEE at her home alone also.
Suddenly she sms me again that she can't sleep, then she wish to hear my voice on that moment, so i was called her with my handset during the lately nite. I talked to her on the phone, she is still feeling so sad on that moment, thus i keep on console her from the phone. I was talked to her about 20 minutes, then she is fall asleep suddenly... then i just stop my conversation..and go to my bed also!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Can't understand...
Dunno why, last Sunday i was promised "him" that i would release "her", and never contact " her " anymore. Second day, I was actually talked to " Her " about this again as well.. However, she was never really take it as seriously as what i spoke to her. She is just like take it as easy as nothing is happening. Well, i dont really know what she actually thinking currently.. she said she cannot just leave him and togeher with me immediately now.. Well, sometimes i can't really help it so well since i dont like to share a gal with another guy. Thats why, so many time i was thought myself want to release her and never involve myself in her life anymore, maybe this is the better way to make myself feels better..
Today i was go out again with her to Sunway Pyramid in this morning. This is the first time that i go shopping very early in the morning. We were reached there at 11am.. and then we go home at 1.45pm. We were just hanging around here for 2 to 3 hours only.. When we reached Sunway Pyramid, we first went to have some food at Uncle Lim Kopitiam. And then just go to take the sticker photo with Her loh.. Ha..lolx this is the first time that i try this sticker photo. I dont really know how to use it when standing inside the camera machine.. then She is the only person who familiar on clicking on this camera machine.
First time on shooting this sticker photo, i was not use to it sofar, thats why every shoots of the photo also not looking nice on me..Anyway, that kind of feels is i never tasted it before in my life..lolx
i was always thinking, what should i really do on that whether i have to maintain my current relationship or stop this relationship immediately. Nonetheless, everytime when i was spoke to her about this, and she is never allow me to release her 1.. She is always just telling me dont ever release her and i should give her time to decide what she have to do on this.. there was so many time even i made her felt disappointed because i want to stop my relationship with her because of "him" given me the warning, but she was never that it as serious and put it in her mind 1... even everytime she is looks angry with me for a short while, but she will initially sms or contact me again after a while 1. sometimes i might think that if she get angry on me already , then she might maybe dont need to make choices in between me and him again loh.. she can just concern on him one person is enough, and i also dont need to suffer again on the feeling of missing a person that impossible to be with me..
Aik.. wednesday is She's spanish course exam, i wish her all the best on her exam..Gambateh..
Today i was go out again with her to Sunway Pyramid in this morning. This is the first time that i go shopping very early in the morning. We were reached there at 11am.. and then we go home at 1.45pm. We were just hanging around here for 2 to 3 hours only.. When we reached Sunway Pyramid, we first went to have some food at Uncle Lim Kopitiam. And then just go to take the sticker photo with Her loh.. Ha..lolx this is the first time that i try this sticker photo. I dont really know how to use it when standing inside the camera machine.. then She is the only person who familiar on clicking on this camera machine.
First time on shooting this sticker photo, i was not use to it sofar, thats why every shoots of the photo also not looking nice on me..Anyway, that kind of feels is i never tasted it before in my life..lolx
i was always thinking, what should i really do on that whether i have to maintain my current relationship or stop this relationship immediately. Nonetheless, everytime when i was spoke to her about this, and she is never allow me to release her 1.. She is always just telling me dont ever release her and i should give her time to decide what she have to do on this.. there was so many time even i made her felt disappointed because i want to stop my relationship with her because of "him" given me the warning, but she was never that it as serious and put it in her mind 1... even everytime she is looks angry with me for a short while, but she will initially sms or contact me again after a while 1. sometimes i might think that if she get angry on me already , then she might maybe dont need to make choices in between me and him again loh.. she can just concern on him one person is enough, and i also dont need to suffer again on the feeling of missing a person that impossible to be with me..
Aik.. wednesday is She's spanish course exam, i wish her all the best on her exam..Gambateh..
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Ipoh Stock take
This week was passed so fast.. today is already friday, and tomorrow is extra rest day on saturday.. I was went to the stock take in Ipoh on Tuesday & Wednesday, and get back to KL on Thursday Noon..
I was being the double auditor for this stock take in Ipoh. First day is audit the backroom gondola, and then the second day is to audit the selling floor gondola for the whole day from morning till evening 7.30pm.
Well, it wasn't difficult to me, i was just treated this stock take as my holiday trip in Ipoh only. Even though, but still feels tiring on here because was stand and audited so many of gondola for the whole day..
Everything was just right in this stock take in ipoh this time. But then the accomodation is not really good enough to us. We was accomodated two nite in Heritage hotel. THis hotel is not really with the good condition for their rooms. Even the bed is appearings the bad smell. Toilet also looking very old already. In the First day i was too tiring, thus i was slept pretty nicely until the morning. However for the second day, i wasn't having a good sleeping for the whole nite. I was kept on awake when half sleeping, Dunno Y..!
Erm..! two days breaksfast is also the same assortment.. same taste.. same colours.. not much different. Anyway, the food is still okey for me..just nice..!
We left from the Ipoh towards to KL at 9.15am. Suppose is 9am will departure from Ipoh 1, however it was due to i late having my breakfast at the hotel there, hence i was took longer time to finished it. While everyone is just sitting on the bus and waited for me only..lolx " Sorry lahh guys, i also dont wish to do that on you 1.. but duno y is it suddenly happening to me. Hopefully next time won't repeat the same mistake again.."
feelin- Tired
I was being the double auditor for this stock take in Ipoh. First day is audit the backroom gondola, and then the second day is to audit the selling floor gondola for the whole day from morning till evening 7.30pm.
Well, it wasn't difficult to me, i was just treated this stock take as my holiday trip in Ipoh only. Even though, but still feels tiring on here because was stand and audited so many of gondola for the whole day..
Everything was just right in this stock take in ipoh this time. But then the accomodation is not really good enough to us. We was accomodated two nite in Heritage hotel. THis hotel is not really with the good condition for their rooms. Even the bed is appearings the bad smell. Toilet also looking very old already. In the First day i was too tiring, thus i was slept pretty nicely until the morning. However for the second day, i wasn't having a good sleeping for the whole nite. I was kept on awake when half sleeping, Dunno Y..!
Erm..! two days breaksfast is also the same assortment.. same taste.. same colours.. not much different. Anyway, the food is still okey for me..just nice..!
We left from the Ipoh towards to KL at 9.15am. Suppose is 9am will departure from Ipoh 1, however it was due to i late having my breakfast at the hotel there, hence i was took longer time to finished it. While everyone is just sitting on the bus and waited for me only..lolx " Sorry lahh guys, i also dont wish to do that on you 1.. but duno y is it suddenly happening to me. Hopefully next time won't repeat the same mistake again.."
feelin- Tired
Sunday, June 15, 2008
unforgetable day..!
15th June 08 , Sunday, 2.45pm.. i had promised to that fella (he) throught the phone conversation that i would never find 'Her" again.. My heart is so pain ,feeling so hard.. and feeling so uneasy.. is there anyone who is stop your relationship with your most lovely one is still steady enough 1.? i hope to find someone who could show me the direction of wat to do now...My mind is so frustrating in this minutes, and i duno what to do to calm down myself not to think of all this sadness news again...
Its so cruel and need very strong courage to choose to stop the relationship with our most lovely one...However, i have no choice, i'm the one who is appearing at not the right time, not a right place, not a right moment currently... i feeling so hard that the gal who u lovely the most is never can right beside you all the while when u wish to see her, that kind of feeling is never can be tasted as good enough..! its feeling so bitter...!
Well..today had spoke with the guy, then now my brain is like putted down a big stone already, but how come my heart is keep on feeling upside down now...is it i had putted my Love on her so deeply now.. is release her consider as the right decision for me..?
I think release is the right choice... because i can never accept my most lovely one which always beside a guy that i not really like him 1... DUno why, maybe is that guy is having a far different with me, thats why the first impression when i look at him, i already can't accept. Well, i cannot judge anyone since i have no right to judge anyone also. However, when the person that u are unlike which always beside "her" then, u will never can control yourself automatically to judge the different between us.. Life is always like such..
just now i was received his sms to me, and he keep pointing that he is the best, its seems like there is no one can be better than him already.. Wow.. really cannot tahan him with this kind of the message given to me.. Well, i just answer him " Good " coz i dont want to talk too much with him since he is the person who is only think himself is the best, if i keep on saying too many thing with him... i will just make him lost his temper only...
Why " Love " is always make ppl feeling so hard... why "Love" is always torture ppl like such..? I derived and tasted a sweet & precious time with all my first time in a very short moment, however now is force to lost everything of this in one day. What is that ...?
feelin- Frust... Annoy...Depress
Its so cruel and need very strong courage to choose to stop the relationship with our most lovely one...However, i have no choice, i'm the one who is appearing at not the right time, not a right place, not a right moment currently... i feeling so hard that the gal who u lovely the most is never can right beside you all the while when u wish to see her, that kind of feeling is never can be tasted as good enough..! its feeling so bitter...!
Well..today had spoke with the guy, then now my brain is like putted down a big stone already, but how come my heart is keep on feeling upside down now...is it i had putted my Love on her so deeply now.. is release her consider as the right decision for me..?
I think release is the right choice... because i can never accept my most lovely one which always beside a guy that i not really like him 1... DUno why, maybe is that guy is having a far different with me, thats why the first impression when i look at him, i already can't accept. Well, i cannot judge anyone since i have no right to judge anyone also. However, when the person that u are unlike which always beside "her" then, u will never can control yourself automatically to judge the different between us.. Life is always like such..
just now i was received his sms to me, and he keep pointing that he is the best, its seems like there is no one can be better than him already.. Wow.. really cannot tahan him with this kind of the message given to me.. Well, i just answer him " Good " coz i dont want to talk too much with him since he is the person who is only think himself is the best, if i keep on saying too many thing with him... i will just make him lost his temper only...
Why " Love " is always make ppl feeling so hard... why "Love" is always torture ppl like such..? I derived and tasted a sweet & precious time with all my first time in a very short moment, however now is force to lost everything of this in one day. What is that ...?
feelin- Frust... Annoy...Depress
Friday, June 13, 2008
Annoying...!
I in the office now, today was happened so many things to me during I go to store visit in BBK until I came back to the head office… My manager was complaint about me that I make the decision without letting him know before I decide anything… It is due to I still very new in the Jusco currently, thus my manager are not really okey to let me to do anythings without his approving. Well, sometimes I admit that I make the decision on certain cases are really didn’t let him know of what I'm doing.. It is because that I thought the things is not that a big matter, thus I just go ahead with my decision only. Well, if anything also need to go through him, then everything will becoming very slow due to the step is too much..
Well, today then only I noticed that doing anything in Jusco, every decision its make is not just for ourselves, it would affecting to the end result to the whole department, no matter it is just a small matter or a big matter, it would seriously affected to us. Well, my manager had told me that everything in jusco we should really plan it with deeply and we should always think of any decision making how it would affected to the whole team at the end.
I found myself is really getting so hard to catch up with what my manager working style currently.. He never will tell you what to do and how to solve the problem… he will only tell you that you are mistake in this part, and you are need to find out it with yourself to get the solution on solving the problem.. He use to ask what you should do but not to teach you how to do… this is very challenging to me at the moment with what i is.. I have to learn on how to get myself to suit to his working style. Hopefully in the comings time, i can cope with him on what he expecting to me in Jusco..!
feelin- Moody
Well, today then only I noticed that doing anything in Jusco, every decision its make is not just for ourselves, it would affecting to the end result to the whole department, no matter it is just a small matter or a big matter, it would seriously affected to us. Well, my manager had told me that everything in jusco we should really plan it with deeply and we should always think of any decision making how it would affected to the whole team at the end.
I found myself is really getting so hard to catch up with what my manager working style currently.. He never will tell you what to do and how to solve the problem… he will only tell you that you are mistake in this part, and you are need to find out it with yourself to get the solution on solving the problem.. He use to ask what you should do but not to teach you how to do… this is very challenging to me at the moment with what i is.. I have to learn on how to get myself to suit to his working style. Hopefully in the comings time, i can cope with him on what he expecting to me in Jusco..!
feelin- Moody
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Tired..! Annoying,...! frustrating..!
Urrghh..! Duno why recently are always keep feeling tiring everyday.. I duno whether is my brain tiring or is my body feel tiring... Well, sometimes when i half doing my task in the office, suddenly my brain will feels like swivelling.. Lately days, was quite busy all the while in the office.. its was so many complaint from the store side regarding to the mobile phone counter without ensuring their promoter stand at the counter during the store operation hours... B.U , BBK , Ipoh , Wangsa Maju , Maluri , Permas Jaya, all this stores are keep calling me almost every week because of "No" promoter at the counter. When the customer ask for the price, there is no promoter to explain to the customers, thus the line manager was get scolded by the customers on the spot. All the line manager is getting annoying with the similar problem keeps on happening in their store. Well, i also keep calling to their person incharge and complaint to the same problem everytime.
My personal Life is keep feelings unusual in this few days..I always ask myself that -" Why Love will make ppl get addicted. When u getting the Love addicted, you will always keep thinking of the dearest no matter in everywhere, everytime , or every minutes even though you are so engaged with all your job, but u will still keep on thinking your dearest 1.
Well, most of the time.. i would find myself feeling so torturing... i dont even can breath.. cannot sleep... cannot concentrate 100% to all the things that i did. It was because sometimes when I feels desperate to see " her " but she is not beside me. When i feels like want to hug on her.. but she was didnt by my side... when i feels like want to speak with her... but she is not here to listen to me..
Duno why... recently i am really really getting tired and tired already.. sometimes i would think whether i should release or keep going with it..? My mom are use to remind me again and again, never ever go to find those gals who is already in the relationship with another.. because mom will worrying that i would getting a lot of trouble with it if that gal's bf is knowing it after, then i might getting many trouble or dangerous. Its because mom use to read from the newspapers that many of this kind of case is happening in the social currently... if the " guy " are feeling not happy, and then go to take the knife and slash on that third person who is trying to steal his gal.. and some is even more dangerous.. they pouring the Asid to this third person face, and make his face corrupted... all this case was becoming very common in the Malaysia social currently.. coz we almost can see this news from the newspaper everyday..
Well, i am quite agree with what my mom saying to me...sometimes myself will feels worrying about all this issues as well.. I really duno what to do also..
Can someone tell me what to do if you are the first time to falling in Love with a gal, but she is already want you to commitment to her, once you had committed to her, you must make sure that you will able to do it.. its not just to simply saying or simply commit anythings to your dearest 1... Maybe i have no experience on falling in love with a gal before, thus i really duno what will happening in the future.. and then i really dont have the ready to commit anything to someone sofar.. thats why i will always keep concerning to this issues...is there anyone who has experienced to this stage before.. perhaps you can give me some hints of what to do on this..?
#$%^&*(
My personal Life is keep feelings unusual in this few days..I always ask myself that -" Why Love will make ppl get addicted. When u getting the Love addicted, you will always keep thinking of the dearest no matter in everywhere, everytime , or every minutes even though you are so engaged with all your job, but u will still keep on thinking your dearest 1.
Well, most of the time.. i would find myself feeling so torturing... i dont even can breath.. cannot sleep... cannot concentrate 100% to all the things that i did. It was because sometimes when I feels desperate to see " her " but she is not beside me. When i feels like want to hug on her.. but she was didnt by my side... when i feels like want to speak with her... but she is not here to listen to me..
Duno why... recently i am really really getting tired and tired already.. sometimes i would think whether i should release or keep going with it..? My mom are use to remind me again and again, never ever go to find those gals who is already in the relationship with another.. because mom will worrying that i would getting a lot of trouble with it if that gal's bf is knowing it after, then i might getting many trouble or dangerous. Its because mom use to read from the newspapers that many of this kind of case is happening in the social currently... if the " guy " are feeling not happy, and then go to take the knife and slash on that third person who is trying to steal his gal.. and some is even more dangerous.. they pouring the Asid to this third person face, and make his face corrupted... all this case was becoming very common in the Malaysia social currently.. coz we almost can see this news from the newspaper everyday..
Well, i am quite agree with what my mom saying to me...sometimes myself will feels worrying about all this issues as well.. I really duno what to do also..
Can someone tell me what to do if you are the first time to falling in Love with a gal, but she is already want you to commitment to her, once you had committed to her, you must make sure that you will able to do it.. its not just to simply saying or simply commit anythings to your dearest 1... Maybe i have no experience on falling in love with a gal before, thus i really duno what will happening in the future.. and then i really dont have the ready to commit anything to someone sofar.. thats why i will always keep concerning to this issues...is there anyone who has experienced to this stage before.. perhaps you can give me some hints of what to do on this..?
#$%^&*(
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Kee Hong's birthday
Yesterday was my fren Kee Hong's 24th Yrs old birthday. We all were celebrated with him in Sanctury " the curve ". There was about 12 ppl were there to celebrate together with him in Sanctury. What a coincidentally, Daniel also celebrate his birthday in the Sanctury as well. They were sitted table beside us. He got about 30 ppls to celebrate with him over there at that nite. Wow..! never tot he so powerful 1.. can ask so many frens to celebrate with him in Sanctury compare with us.
Yesterday i was quite apology to Kee Hong, because i was stay there about 3 hours only. Everyone was stayed from 9.30pm until 3am then only they leave, but i was left at 1am.
Its was too my surprise that " She " sms me in the evening, and she said she would like to go with me to the sanctury for my fren kee Hong's birthday. Hence, at the last minute without telling kee hong, i was brought along " she " to his birthday. Everyone was quite surprise that i suddenly brought a gal came to joining them over there. Well, i also duno how to explain to my frens about my relationship with " her ". I just telling my fren that " she " is my colleague, thats all.. But i know my frens will never can believe me 1... they will think my relationship with " Her "is not wat is said so simple... i must be having something different relationship with " her " 1. Well, i never tot i will bring " her " to see my frens before, duno why i suddenly will agreed to bring her to join my fren birthday in this time. Since my relationship with " her " is still not clearly yet currently.. how dare i bring her out to see my fren lehh...! Charm lah..! i know next time when my frens call me out for yum char, they will definitely keep on non-stop asking me so many question 1.. Sighh..! what should i do to this..? how should i answer all if they ask from me..,? should i prepare any question before i go out to meet my frens on next time gathering..?
My feeling is up side down in this moment... i will always thinking, if one day " she " really broke up with her current b/f, i will feel that i am a bad guy... i am really really bad.. because i made him lost " her "... SOmetimes i heard that " she " telling me she was quarrel with "him" because " he " dont let "her" to see me.. but " she" was always answer " him " with -you have No right to do this-.. then sometimes they may quarrel because of this 1... BUt sometimes is terbalik, " she " will telling me that the " boy " was go out to find another gal because "she " came out to see me...! It seems like " balas dendam to her.. Wow... because " she " came out to see me, then that " boy " will go out to find another gal to replace " her" if the time without seeing " her ". What is the philosophy of this..?
In Many time, i quite struggling with my self, i tried many time want to stop seeing her and dont wish to have any things with " her " anymore, then they both might not have quarrel again because of me. However, sometimes when they quarrel again for some other reason, and " she " will call me again when she is not feeling good in that moment.. then i also cannot control myself, i duno why everytime when is feeling unhappy, i will never think so much , straight away just go to console her lohh..! Haih..! my mom will never agree i become to the THird party to interrupt others ppls Life.. because of the morality then my mom will never agree to let me doing this kind of stuff.. i really duno how to telling my mom with all this cases happening to me currently..
Now then only i can understand " Love " will never can easy for me.. many things and many ppls surrounding us will affecting to all our decision.. Whatever any decision we make, it would affecting to others ppls as well..
feelin- headche...! Who can show me the direction..?
Yesterday i was quite apology to Kee Hong, because i was stay there about 3 hours only. Everyone was stayed from 9.30pm until 3am then only they leave, but i was left at 1am.
Its was too my surprise that " She " sms me in the evening, and she said she would like to go with me to the sanctury for my fren kee Hong's birthday. Hence, at the last minute without telling kee hong, i was brought along " she " to his birthday. Everyone was quite surprise that i suddenly brought a gal came to joining them over there. Well, i also duno how to explain to my frens about my relationship with " her ". I just telling my fren that " she " is my colleague, thats all.. But i know my frens will never can believe me 1... they will think my relationship with " Her "is not wat is said so simple... i must be having something different relationship with " her " 1. Well, i never tot i will bring " her " to see my frens before, duno why i suddenly will agreed to bring her to join my fren birthday in this time. Since my relationship with " her " is still not clearly yet currently.. how dare i bring her out to see my fren lehh...! Charm lah..! i know next time when my frens call me out for yum char, they will definitely keep on non-stop asking me so many question 1.. Sighh..! what should i do to this..? how should i answer all if they ask from me..,? should i prepare any question before i go out to meet my frens on next time gathering..?
My feeling is up side down in this moment... i will always thinking, if one day " she " really broke up with her current b/f, i will feel that i am a bad guy... i am really really bad.. because i made him lost " her "... SOmetimes i heard that " she " telling me she was quarrel with "him" because " he " dont let "her" to see me.. but " she" was always answer " him " with -you have No right to do this-.. then sometimes they may quarrel because of this 1... BUt sometimes is terbalik, " she " will telling me that the " boy " was go out to find another gal because "she " came out to see me...! It seems like " balas dendam to her.. Wow... because " she " came out to see me, then that " boy " will go out to find another gal to replace " her" if the time without seeing " her ". What is the philosophy of this..?
In Many time, i quite struggling with my self, i tried many time want to stop seeing her and dont wish to have any things with " her " anymore, then they both might not have quarrel again because of me. However, sometimes when they quarrel again for some other reason, and " she " will call me again when she is not feeling good in that moment.. then i also cannot control myself, i duno why everytime when is feeling unhappy, i will never think so much , straight away just go to console her lohh..! Haih..! my mom will never agree i become to the THird party to interrupt others ppls Life.. because of the morality then my mom will never agree to let me doing this kind of stuff.. i really duno how to telling my mom with all this cases happening to me currently..
Now then only i can understand " Love " will never can easy for me.. many things and many ppls surrounding us will affecting to all our decision.. Whatever any decision we make, it would affecting to others ppls as well..
feelin- headche...! Who can show me the direction..?
Monday, June 02, 2008
Annual Dinner 28 May 08
Be What you want to Be Annual Dinner
Our Group theme attirement " Arabian "
Left : King , M C, Wayne & Leven
Annual Dinner 28 May 08
Left Behind : Wayne & King
Left Front : Sharfinas, Carrol, Jo , Fong ,Chris , Nicole, C.K & Me
Annual Dinner 28 May 08
Electrical & Home Center members
Left Behind : Mr Woon & M C
Left Front :Fong, Wayne , Leven & King
Sunday, June 01, 2008
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