Wednesday, December 31, 2008

New Paint welcoming to Year 2009

New Year with New Painting and New colourful design for my old house. Been 10 years didnt paint for my old house already. Dunno why, this year suddenly think of want to change a new colourful painting to my wall.

Main colour for this time painting is Sun Yellow, Apple Green, ligth Yellow and light chocolate colour. Kitchen and my bedroom with Apple Green design. While the living room is paiting with Yellow, Chocolate and mixes a little with Apple Green. Another bedroom and backyard are painting with light yellow. But the front door wall side is with Chocolate painting as well.

i was thought that this year is only i paint my house, never thought that my manager and few of my friends also painting their house for this year and preparing for CNY as well.

I was use about 4 days to finished the painting to my house. Here i captured some photo as a memory for 2008 and welcoming to year 2009..

TOday is the New year eve, im sure that many people will going to countdown at the center of KL, well tonite i also hanging out with my buddies for dinner to Kaki corner and maybe going countdown in sg wang..!

Happy New Eve to everyone and Happy welcoming to year 2009... May all my wishes comes true and fulfilling to all my wants on the coming year 2009...!

New Paint




Apple Green Painting to my Bed Room..!

New Paint




Worship Area

New Paint



With Sun Yellow colour Living Room..!

New paint.!




New paint with Beautiful drawing..
My previous Artwork..!



New Paint with New Lamp..!
Cheap but beautiful..

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Finally finished the 21 New store opening

Today is the second day came back from Johor bukit indah. The friday is the opening of JaSco new store in bukit indah. This is the 21 stores in the whole Malaysia.

I was went there two times. Last week was go there for 3 days 2 nite. And this week was go there for 5 days 4 nite for the new store opening set up and preparation.

Last week was actually settle 70% for my AV department. Its just left the connection parts is not yet finish. Thus the main purpose of this week go there is to do all the connection cable to TV and the price label & POP materials.

First day opening wasn't shown many people are shopping there. Sales is not really good enough. The figure are not even have 5 thousands until 9pm. But then, around 9.30pm the crowd is getting more and more. Sales has increased slowly.

Everytime the new store opening , the small appliances sales should be tremendously better than others categories. Their sales has achieved over RM 25K when 7pm. The figure is quite far different with the large appliances and AV products.

The first day of store opening, most of the merchandisers is just stayed there until 2pm only. The bus will bring us back to KL at 2pm. Well, i arrived to the store at 8.30am, and then get everythings demo is on display, then its has be alright already. The rest just leave it to my staff to do it, such as the sales and the CDO prepartion and etc.

Around 11am, i went to survey to the SenQ which allocated at another side in JaSco. I went to survey to their price and the modelsof LCDs plasma that they have in their store. Hm.. their price didnt show attractive and different compare with us. Some of their price is even marked up higher already 1. I duno how they doing for the promotion actually, their price is doesnt have any special to the customers. The crowd over there is not so many as well. But then the environment in their selling floor is really comfortable and beautiful lahh.. this is the most attracted point to them and the customers also.

After survey to the SenQ, then i just sneaking to go shopping to the Branded Concept store and Padini concept store to check out whats special in their shop for the first day opening that day. Many things in both this shop is offering 20%, Wahh.. 20%is really worth to buy leh.. coz normally if i buy a shirt in the SEED, its would cost me about RM 109, but today offering 20% for all the Padini members. Even though i didnt have the member card, but i can register as the member on the spot for about 10 minutes for the processing time only, Its really efficiency.

CNY is just around the corner, SO we now start buying the new clothes is the good time, because if we wait until the last minutes shopping, the crowd will getting too heavy and we dont even convenience to fitting the clothes and pant if we thinking to buy.

Came back from johor, feeling tired and getting a light flu..

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Rob & stolen case..!

The wangsa maju area are not really safety enough recently. Many thieves cases and the rob cases was happened in wangsa maju now. Its causing the residents feels like unsafety enough due to many people was experienced with themselves of rob case over here also.

It just friday nite, my younger brother was happened a theft case to him. The case was happened in the midnite about 2.30am, he was came back from damansara to wangsa maju, he was felt a bit hungry, hence he want to buy some food to eat. He parked his car opposite the BRJ Bistro, and then walk to BRJ to buy some food and go home to eat. The process is just took him about 10 mins only. when he came back and get into his car, then only he awared that his car's mirror at behind was break by someone, and his bag which putted at the front seat, also was disappear.

He went to report to the police, the police also cannot do anythings for him. This case was made him losed up to about RM1k. The digital camera that i gave him was get stolen, purse, cash, sales report, pendrive, credit card, IC , licence, house key, wax, everythings has gone. "sigh..haih..! duno what to say, Mum has been many time keep remind him dont always go out during the mid nite, coz there is many stolen cases happened in wangsa maju recently. But my brother has never listen to mom say.

Then this time was really Gao gao..loh, everything gone, the mirror have to change a new one, the splatter mirror all inside the car's carpet.. have to clean up also.


feelin- moody

New store AU2 opening..

Finally AU2 JAsCo new store has opened on Friday 5th December. THe first day opening was so many people shopping there, however the people who really purchasing the goods is very less. Even though the people buy, also just buy one to two things only, not much.

Electrical department also wasn't good enough. But if compare with Wangsa maju store, this store are gaining higher sales compare with wangsa maju store. THe small appliances was gained about RM40k in one day on the first day opening. while the AV is only gained about RM 20k somethings.

Many customer passedby no matter which department, the staff all must be hearing the customer complaining & keep saying that this AU2 will be closing soon 1 due to the response is not really well that they open in keramat area here.THe price for the supermarket goods also not cheaper compare with the carrefour.

In additional, customers all saying the wangsa maju supermarket are getting better sales due to the TARC students all love to shopping over the JASCO wangsa maju, but AU2 is a bit farer from their place, thats why this store are lacking of some students market in this new store in AU2.

ON the other side, the softline of cosmetic, fashion, shoes all are having special offer, thus the softline all are gaining quite high for the sales on the day of opening. Malay customers love to shop in JaSCo, keramat area is more on malay market. We can see all the customers here is 90% on malays.

This AU2 new store have many cafe and the coffee shop there, the customers who shop in AU2, they are able to get many choice of meals if they looking for food. It is such as " big Apple, Leo Cafe, Spicy Delight, Subway Sandwich, Old Town, steven corner, Teppanyaki, Starbuck, Kenny Rogers, Izzit Cafe and etc.

Overall, the environment here is quite comfortable lahh.. its just need some time for the customers to adapt here, hopefully the coming next month , the sales will increase further.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

New Store opening soon

AU2 & Bukit Indah New store will be opening soon. The date of open the AU2 is on 5th December while BUkit Indah will be opening soon on 19th December. Still have 6 days to go, then we will complete our mission in AU2 already.

Well, recently all are busying for the merchandise display in the store this few days. AU2 is not a big store, the AV department is quite small for this time set up, hence we were taken shorter time to complete all the display up to the shelve already.

Suppose i has ordered few units of new model of LG LCD, but it was due to the out of stock from the LG, then i forced to change another brand LCD to replace LG up to the shelve.

As usual, everytime after putting up all the LCD to the shelve, we do need to connecting all the Demo to the LCDs, it is quite troublesome actually everytime when we doing the set up for the new store opening. My finger all fully with wound during installing and connecting all the LCDs. The task wasn't easy to me.

This time new store open, fortunately we getting sufficient of the manpower to help us to putting up all the display, because the Audio merchandiser has left from jAsGo already, hence I do need to follow up his things in the new store set up also.

Hoohh..! tired..!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Conflicts begins with my Management

There is becoming so many of conflicts happening between my manager and i recently, Our department was one person has left, until today still havent have another replacement sofar.

Just last month, there is another person has tender his resignation letter to the manager again, and he will be leaving soon on this 23th November. Haih..! one person and one person going now, the taks is getting much and much until cannot finish. However the manager can never understand our situation that we are just a merchandiser only, we are doing purchasing, merchandise, marketing, sales, planning, sometime also need to do the auditing somemore..! Wow, one salary for us but doing for 3 person 4 person multi tasking in the office everyday.

New store are keep open and open again in the whole Malaysia, I really scary of the JASco opening the new stores 1 everytime, there will be a lot of preparation have to do, and then we still have to be stay in the new store to merchandise and display the LCDs and plasma to the shelve for few days. And the ordering, schematic plan, POP price label, Promotion planning, Special price for opening, all have to be get ready before the new store open.

Sometime i might overload the task and doing unperfect enough for another job. The manager always is only concerning that he need to attend to the merchandising meeting and he need to present of our department plan, hence he want us to be plan for the next year 25th Anniversary item, 52weeks merchandise, December best value item, CNY item, Christmas item, Jcard Day special.. it was so much so much of the job need be to done before he go for meeting for his presentation, all the top management want to listen to all our plan in the meeting.

Urghh,,! wat the hell with this..? now is only November, but now have to plan for the next year thing, how could it have a perfect planning for two month in advance..? The environment is keep changing everyday , the market is fluctuating everyday as well. TOday we plan like this, doesnt means we will follow all the same in the two month after.

Well, i couldnt get the 25th Anniversay item for him immediately, because the concept of the Anniversary item have to be 3 main reasons " Special feactures, exlusive only for JAsco, opening price to the market ". Hence i was kept pending pending and pending for quite many days also couldn't get him an answer, thus he was suddenly get the Hitachi supplier to offer him a very special LCD for this Anniversay promotion. However, when he agreed to Hitachi, i was suddenly found another better offer from Toshiba which is better margin and better selling price compare with Hitachi, and he was 50/50 duno how to choose. He asked why i didnt tell him early..! When he has promised to Hitachi, but he can't break his promise to Hitachi even though we knowing Toshiba is better choice compare with Hitachi.

Urghh, because i still discussing with toshiba supplier when he agreed to Hitachi, havent confirm the offer, how can i propose to him as the time too too too rush for me to get an special item for the next year Anniversary item in two month advance. Sometimes, i rather that i dont accept this offer and propose this Toshiba to my manager, then it will be save for me, then i dont need to be get scolded by him of late proposed to him..!

Many time i was found myself really cannot tahan to this position already now, although my position is an assistant merchandiser, but all the while doing for merchandiser's job, settle the problem to the 19 stores, settle the problem with 20 suppliers, and then have to be fulfill all the need from my manager, Haih.. really cant imagine that will be so overload the task that we do in JASco.. from the previous company no matter how busy, how tough that i do, but also never as tough as my current position.

Almost every month are seeing the people leaving from JASco, the turnover rate is really high over here as well. Hmm..! i can understand this situation lahh, many people are waiting for better offer from another company, that why they are all waiting patiently over here, once they getting better chances, and they will leaving immediately. Even my current department , all the colleagues are now waiting for the better opportunity from another company also..haha..!

Stock take month

There will be two time doing stock take in JAsco in a year. First time is on JUne and the second time in November. Well this month is the stock take month, thus we all buyers have to control to the inventory in our logistic and also our store side as well. The inventory cannot be over the limit hence it would be easy and convenience for us in the stock take tasks.

Every stock take month, the sales is doesnt seems to be so good due to all store are focusing on counting the stock and auditing to the inventory & also the turn over of overall stores in this month.

I was allocated to stock take in Wangsa maju store on this Thursday nite with AJIS. Ajis means "Associate Japanese Inventory stock take" the team which come all the way from Japan to Malaysia to assist us on stock take matter.

Normally they are doing their tasks in the midnite. They will start from 11pm until next day morning 8am. This is my first time of doing stock take in the midnite. Well, it wasnt nice to me of doing the stock take in the mid nite, coz it will be very very torture and tired to us that we were already used to sleeping during the nite 1`, but this time want us to work in the mid nite and we have to tahan until next day then only can sleep...! BAd bad bad..!

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Time Goes by speedy..!

ONe week and one week passed very fast.. Everyday was just busy for the working in the office from morning 9am until 9pm. It is almost 12 hours working for me in my curent position everyday now.

Suppose i going back at 8pm or 7.30pm normally, it was due to the AON extended warranty was brought again the certificate of last year customer's extended warranty for me as a supporting document to the finance department in order to prove the payment for all this jAsco customer's extended warranty purchased in jAsco.

Wel, before i submit all this certificate to the finance department, i need to sorting up all this certificate according to store by store and serial number by serial number to the finance in order to easier their job. It might need to take time to completing all the sorting. There is no one can help me to sorting up all this certificate, hence i need to use my after working hours to settle this case for passed few days.

I hate doing sorting to all this certificate, because all this are not our merchandising side tasking, it suppose to be the auditing department to handle all this case mahh..! Haih, even though jAsco are a big company, however the manpower are never be sufficient to handle to all the case in the company.

Actually our merchandiser job is to sourcing for good merchandise and handling the ordering in the jAsco only, however sometime if the supplier are getting short paid of their payment, then we as a merchandiser also need to help them to solve out all this problem.

Haih.. we only can say that " Jus Go " is the one company with single salary to fully utilise and maximise all the tasks in the company, Wahh they really know how to minimise their costing to the company..!

I'm getting tiring to work in the company already, everyday also too much of the task that need me to complete it with very less timing for me. Everyday are just rushing all the job in the company. There is no more life, no more entertainment, lesser rest time, to me again since i joined to this company.


However, upgrading income have to wait until next year October, i duno whether i still can wait patiently to the upgrading until next year or not..!



feelins- Tiring

Monday, October 27, 2008

Happy Deepavali to all lovely Indian Kawan...!

Happy Deepavali..!!

this year is celebrating the Deepavali with fever.
Well, last Saturday was participated to the company tree planting at paya indah. All the volunteers were work under the hot sun, we all standed under the sun from 9am till 12.30pm. Urghh..! its really suffering, suppose i was taken the annual leave for this saturday and the leave also has approved by manager, however i forced to cancel the leave due to i was listed the name as volunteer to participate to the company's tree planting to paya indah.

Actually i not really willing to go 1, but once the name appear on the list, you cannot say " NO" unless you have better reason to the management lahh..! Nonetheles, when i attended to this activities in the morning, then only i noticed that some people also was absent to this tree planting even though their name was listed in.

Arghh>! i was cheated by them again, Anyway, next time if my name is appear again on the list, i will not participate to the tree planting anymore. During this tree planting, my sport shoes was spoilted because of the dirty mud, i was accidentally step into the dirty mud and my whole shoes was coloured with the dirty chocolate on top of my PUMA shoes..

The activities is only until 12.30pm, when the bus drove back to the office is only 1.30pm, our working shift is from 9am to 6pm, hence after the tree planting, we still necessary continue our working in the office until 6pm. Really can't imagine that we all wearing the T-shirt with all smelly perpiration and work in the office.. really cannot tahan to those uncomfortable feeling.

After came back to home, then next day suddenly getting fever, muscle feel painful, and my whole body feel so tiring... @ just went to see the doctor just now..! after had my medicine, and now feeling better already..! but doctor say need more rest lahh..!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Where is the better Opportunity..!

i still have 12 days annual leave for this year, most of the colleagues has taken their leave since June until Sept, almost has clear off their annual leave already until today, however i was never taken my leave not even one day also. We allow to bring forward 5 days annual leave to next year 09. Then there will be 7 days leave left for me in this year.

Friday has taken one day leave, then now is still have 6 days more going to take within Oct until December. Haih..! the thing is even friday i was on leave, but the telephone is still keep ringing to me, suppliers was Nil delivery for the urgent ordering, EDS system appearings problem on the Jcard member price, Jcard day event area preparation and blah..blah..blah... EVen though friday is on leave, manager still called to me and asking me about the set up of the Jcard day event area and etc..%$#&^%*(.

I noticed that even though i taking the leave at home, but still working at home like i doing in the office as well. I cant use the office telephone, but to use my personal handphone to calling to the suppliers and the store to solve the problem with myself at home. Because all this things is handling and follow by myself one person only, there is no assistant to help me on those settlement also..

Really really getting bored to my current employment already, almost no life for me, no entertainment for me... no time for me... not freedom for me... unflexibility for me... and everyday are just working and sleep... working and sleep only... Nonetheless, even working with so hard for the company, but the salary are never increase to me, even bonus also just very very little only to me...

Petrol was increased so much but just decrease with little until today...somemore i was not entitle to the rebate from the government of RM 650 p.a , since i have to wait until next year January then only can go to take the rebate from the government sector. Well, the petrol is decreasing until RM 2.30 today, i think there is no more rebate for us anymore lah.. then Rugi lahh for me..

There is one things is so desperating to me at the moment..! You know what..?

Waiting for opportunity...WHere is the new opportunity to me?... i am searching for u... and waiting so desperating to you " Opportunity "...Come come..come..!


Feelin- desperating

Thursday, October 16, 2008

One day trip survey to Melaka

Today was visited to Melaka 2 for the whole day. We departed from HQ at 9am. About 11.10am we reached Melaka Bintang Square. The bus drop us for competitor visit around the Bintag complex about 40 minutes. After that, the bus moved towards to Mahkota perade. Then we just had our lunch in Mahkota perade , and then go for the store visit again in the pakson and carrefour.

Suppose, we are looking for some cheap and nice restaurant to have our lunch 1. However Mr Woon suddenly said want to eat Japanese Sushi, So we was went into the Nihon restaurant.. When we look at the menu and see, wah..! the price is really really expensive.. The cheapest set for lunch is about RM18 ++ per person. Of couse 5 of us are ordered to this cheapest set lunch loh..! Myself are dont really love to eat sushi, but i seen MC, Mr Woon and NIcole are really love to eat this. They were ordered quite many side ordered of sushi for their appetise..

After the survey of all competitors, we still have about 15 mins extra, hence i was shop to the Pahlawan complex, suddenly went into the Brands Shop and saw a nice and cheap grey colour slack, thus i quickly take it and test it in the fitting room, and then straight away go to the cashier and make the payment.. All the transaction finished within 10 minutes only.. Haha..! this is the first time that i purchase a things in 10 minutes time only... it was so quick, until myself also can't even believe it as well...

We departed from Mahkota at 3pm, and then we moved forward to Tesco, We was saw the land which the new Jusco to be built over here, Wow.. the distance between tesco with this new Jusco is very very near.. i can't believe in it also. Well.! we still unable to see the building sofar, we only saw several steels.. and the pillars on the land at the moment... nothing can see today.

Hmm..! at least we know the jusco will be open soon in beside the Tesco lohh...! Tesco wasn't high competitive to us on the electrical side, i only saw few low end model of LCDs which display on the shelve only. There are not much choice for the customers, they only focus on colour TV and 32" LCDs only sofar...

4pm, the bus departed from Tesco and moving back to KL already.. generally speaking, the one day trip to Melaka is doesnt seems to be so tiring to us, it was just like going for holiday over melaka here. It just that the time is a bit rushing for us, not much time for us to stay longer in Pahlawan perade loh..!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

ZzzZZZzzzZZzzzzzzzz..!

It was a really really busy week and tiring week. Monday busy for weekly ordering, Tuesday are busy to meet up with the suppliers , Wednesday are busy for Weekly selection and November Best value sourcing, and then thursday busy for master plan and the layout preparing for the line meeting. Friday is the whole day line meeting until 6.30pm. And then still need to rush for the AV & ICT MM fair layout to submit to the complex after the line meeting. Today was worked until 9pm then only leave the office.

Duno why, my brain are felt tiring for this few days. And then morning is very hard to wake myself up everyday as well. Always are felt so sleepy, and then need to get some coffee to tahan my brain to ensure all the while is with 100% attention on my job.

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Work .. work.. work..!

Hari Raya most of the malay staff are still in holiday now, thus management are keep pushing HQ staff go down to the stores as the helper to help the cashier or being a packer at the counter.

Suppose Friday and saturday is my holiday actually, friday suppose is replacement holiday for my last Sunday working while saturday is our ERD also. However, Nakata-san said the store cashier is not enough manpower, hence he want us to go down to the store to being helper.

I'm distributed to the Mid Valley store for friday and saturday, 10am to 7pm. Suppose management want me to be the cashier, but i didnt go for the cashier training, so i duno how to control the cashier machine, then they put me as the packer at the super market on the first day and dining department on the second day.

Hmm..! i found that working at the store side is quite different, i only faced with the customers, when the time to leave, then i allow to leave at sharp. Nonetheless compare with HQ, a lot of paper work, many suppliers need to meet with them.. after that have to finished all the marketing job and the documentation works until very late nite then only can leave the office. Feeling a little boring to my work already.. Anyone who can tell me whats can make me feel fresher to my work lehh..?

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Selamat Hari Raya..! Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
HQ will be close for 2 days for hari raya.
SS has just finished the Metro Prima department renovation on Sunday.
It was a really really tough and torture work to me for this 3 days renovation.

First day we being the helper to help the small appliances department to merchandise the display. We took the trolly go to the MMD to carry all the merchandise to the first floor. Second day is my department Visual start to merchandise the shelve. Well, the electric contractor wasn't did the job well to me for the renovation. From the begining i told them i want to put about 24x power point on the board 1 and board 2. However the contractor was just did about 16x power point to me only, they were left out 8x power point didnt does for me.

Urghh..! when they hand over to me, its about 10pm already. And the job also didnt doing good to me as well. Haih...! we cannot wait for them to redo the 8x power point to me again because the time is not allow me to wait for them you know, the nite is very late already. I still havent put any display unit on the shelve for display yet, after putted the display to the shelve, we still need to swtich on the power and connect all the LCDs with the DVD player by using the cables then only consider as perfect.

We hanged all the LCDs to the board and the shelve, the time is already 1am midnite, too late edy, thus i left all the connecting job until next day then only continue again. Suppose the next day we work at 12pm noon shift, however due to the job havent finish yet, hence i'm the only one who came earliest at 9.30am morning to link all the LCDswith the cabling.

Urghh..! my hands are feel pain and many wound because was injured during open the LCDs boxes and the screwing bracket to the LCDS.

Anyway, all the things has settled now, the mission also has consider completed lahh..! November still have one more ampang new store going to new opening and renovation & merchandise to be do before the store open.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

FRuSt .. f Rust.. frust..!

Its been a busy and stressful week to me in jasGo. Metro prima renovation new opening on 30th Sept, so much of the merchandise need to be order to the store and we have to ensure the stock is delivered to the store by the supplier with 100%. However, it can never be so nice to us 1, there must have some suppliers will failed to guarantee their 100% delivery.

Urghh..! i had forgotten i need to order the TV rack for the display and the wall bracket to be wall mount the LCDs on the wall side. Both this most important things i was forgotten without aware it to myself also until today my manager remind me, then only i awared it. :< tomorrow suppose to be the helper in metro prima, i plan to go there directly 1, but since i have this things havent settle it yet, hence have to go back to office to do the ordering in the morning again." haih..!

yesterday was received the supplier called, she was chasing the payment from me. Well, i actually had did my job already, i filled up all the payment form and gathered the necessity document and submitted to the finance department waiting them to issue the cheque to this supplier. However, i been submitted this to the finance department almost 2 months already but the payment still havent settle it yet, cheque also never prepare until today, thats why supplier called and scolded us again lahh... Haih.. our merchandiser side is the pitiest 1, we stand at the middle the supplier always chasing us, but the finance department always said " Wait lahh " , then how am i going to explain to the supplier..? sometime i really getting bored to the jAsGO system 1, a big company like this but the operation procedure need to take so long to settle a thing.

Really really frust frust frust....

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Big team gathering dinner

Had my dinner with all my buddies at Small Genting's Gasoline tonite. We were about 15 peoples was there to had our dinner together in Gasoline.

Name list : Siang, Kian Sin, Darry, kian, Chloe, Ah La and his G/F, Chun and his G/F, SHoo Guan and his G/f, Chong and his G/F and myself.

At first, kian sin said we gotta go to kaki corner to eat steak, but at the end i asking them to change the place and i suggested to small genting 's Gasoline. The reason why i choose this place is because i love the environment over here. Still remember the first time i been to this place, is about 5.00pm, the environment is captured my eyes deeply because i can see through the KL view over there.

The first time i been to this place, the time is still early thus i can choose the table whatever i like. However tonite is saturday, there was so so so many peoples having their dinner over here also. When we reached Gasoline, is about 8pm, all tables is occupied by the guests already. If we want the table for 15 people sitting, we at least have to wait about 30 minutes. Of course we didnt wait until 30 minutes so long lahh, at first we saw a table have people left, then we take it. And slowly slow then, got 2 table is available already, and then we take it also. After 5 minutes again, there is another table is available, and then we take all the table and combine it for ourselves.

Nonetheless, during we take the table from other side and stig to another side, the waiter is not really happy with what we did actually. Still remember there is one Bangladesh waiter put his shouting on us and saying the walk way we cannot put the table there. Coz he said if we occupied the walk way there, they can't send the food to the table which behind us. Well, i dont think we has block to the whole walk way there loh, i still see there is quite a big place allow the waiter to walk through to send over the food to serve the table behind us.

Chong, siang and i were quite unhappy with the way that the waiter shouted at us, and their service is doesnt seems to be okey to us also. And then, when that bangladesh waiter sending the food to our table, but he cant see the table number, he not sure whether the food is to be serve for us or not, thats why he seems like getting a bit fed up to us on that moment when the time he holding two place of steak. It was because chew has put it aside down to the table already. Thats why the waiter can't see. And then the waiter putted his blame to us again. Well, this time Siang really cannot control his temper already and he was shouted back to this bangladesh fella of how can you as a waiter keep shouting and been uncourteousy to the guests. We coming here to give business to you and we do pay for the service tax, but your service never seems to be good to us also.

Wow, this is the first time that i seeing siang so uncontrollable to his temper and putted his shout to this bangladesh fella. All others guests is looking at our table and seeing what going on with us at our table. I tried to comfort Siang's temper and ask him to cooling his temper down.

After that, we all placed our order to the waiter, and the waiter took the order and send it to kitchen. All the steak is served on our table already, but vivian's ordering was not serve yet although she had waited for so long, and we all almost finished our steak already but her food was still havent serve yet. And then chong just checked with another waiter, what's the problem of that. Why need to wait for so long. And then the waiter asked : what are the order from vivian. Vivian aswered him that she ordered a fried rice just now. And too my surprise, the guy said the rice is finished edy, no more rice to be serve if we order. Urghh..! how can this happened to the customer 1? when we put our order , you as a waiter but never tell us on the spot that you dont have the rice to be serve anymore during we order from you./ Well, at the end, vivian said she dont want to eat again, she asked to cancel her order and dont want to find any replacement for it also.

we left the place at 10.30pm. When we pay for the bill, the boss was given us a 10% discount on the bill on that. Haha.. the boss also awared that they are doesnt serve us nice also, thats why they also not dare to charges for the service charge to us lahh.. The waiter came here and said sorry to Siang, and vivian. The waiter showed him two different receipt, one is original receipt and another 1 is discounted 10% receipt to prove it to us that they are apologize to us.

Alright, i know their service wasn't good enough to us, but i still never think of boycott their cafe and i will still coming again if i have free. Because i really love the environment there, also i able to eying to the whole KL view over there mahh..! I know sometime too many guest for them, and they sometime might can't manage to satisfy and fulfill to all customers needs as well, hence i didnt think their mistake is serious to me lahh..!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Problem..!

Just came back from Johor on yesterday. We reached KL at 6.30pm. This time trip of my store visit to johor wasn't alright to me. During the store visit to Melaka, my manager was noticed the I-gate mobile phone counter was empty without any display on the shelve for few weeks already without settle it promptly, then he was scolded me gao gao.. and then he want me to ask another supplier to replace the Melaka counter with immediately. I'm actually had contacted to the camera supplier to occupy this I-gate empty counter, however the supplier is only can come to see the place on next Tuesday, the supplier will bring along his big boss come over to Melaka to discuss how to occupy this empty counter. But then my manager still feeling wasn't nice enough, he want now then we have to do now. Urrghh..! i dont know how to solve it then if he can't wait until next Tuesday. He keep blaming me why i didnt take any further action towards this empty counter with immediately but just leave it empty until that day.

Well, it was due to too much of the task that on my hand currently, and i dont even have enough time to complete it, thus some of the things i might ommitted it and then i didnt follow up it tightly. Then this is the consequence towards me at the end lohh.

I really can't adapt to the attitude that my manager spoke to me, but then i cant do anything, because he is my manager.. i have to follow all his instruction loh. I was scolded by him quite many times already since i take over and follow up all my senior job from June since he had resign, maybe is my experience not good enough thats why he always complaint to me , and everytime i just stand there with quietly let him scold. Because i know i made the mistake, sometimes others ppl and i think the things is really nice enough, nonetheless my manager sure will find out somethings that not perfect enough to the thing i done for him 1.

Alright, he got about 13 years experience with the firm until today, i'm sure he will have his reason for every thing that he pointing out to me. Hence, i will definitely listen to him of what he telling me.

Nevertheless, i dont really comfortable with the style when the time he speaking with us. His sound is so slow and we cannot hear him clearly in most of the time he telling us something.

Sometime, when i asking him something whether i am correct on this way i done for the job or not, and he will only answering me with :" Do you think it is ok..? is it perfect enough..? is it only that you can think..? is it logic with what you think..? Urgghh..! i really cannot tahan with the way that he answer to me. I would think if my ideas or my decision is uncrorrect, then pls correct me with showing me the proper way of how i should do on that matter, rather than keep asking me back so much of the question and make me keep guessing guessing which of the part is uncorrect, which of the part is unlogical, which of the part is unperfect enough... the time when i guessing, its made me wasted quite much time already. If he can show me the correct way straight away, or show me the proper way with immediately, then i will be able to finish a task in quicklier and i will not just sitting at my place and looking to the plan and think which of the part is not wat he want.

I didnt feel comfortable and not feeling quite good to myself since i just received so much of complaint from my manager this few days, and didnt received the good treating from my manager even i had spent so much time to my office, sacrifice my TV hour to finish my tasks in the office everyday work until so late. All this is not what i want, well.. i have a little bit felt quite disappointed with what i done and what i sacrifice to the company now. Never have a good treating from the management even though i'm so serious to all my work. If some parts that i can't did it with nicely, then i sure will get shoot by my manager again...

I use to listen to many ppl saying that big company is very stressing to the employees because there are so many of job have to do, and it never can be easy to us to do as well. Then now i eventually has aware & understand of this words meaning already.

Anyway, i will still keep going with what i expected myself to work in this firm since the day i joined to this firm. God blessing...! hopefully everything will be alright...!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Going to 5 stores visit tomorrow

Going to store visit on tomorrow. We will depart from HQ at 8am. THe First station will going to Seremban 2, and then second will be going to Melaka. After that, evening will be going to Johor again. We will stayed at Johor 2 nite at THE ZON hotel.

Friday will visit to Permas Jaya and Tmn University. And then Saturday morning will be going to Tebrau City until 1pm. And then we will depart from Tebrau City and go back to KL at 1pm.

I'm actually not really wish to go visit to the stores by this week, because i still having quite a lot of task havent complete yet sofar, inside my email box still have about 56 mail waiting for me to read and reply. Furthremore, i do need to prepare the Master Event plan for OCtober and pass it to all stores by next Tuesday. Nonetheless, the management had planned the trip for store visit in this week, then all merchandisers have to go also.

Suppose, the line meeting is arranged on 22th Sept, however due to the schedule is too tight, then management suddenly cancel the meeting, and we all can't wait until the line meeting then only i can pass the MEP to the line manager. We force to pass it to our manager on next Tuesday, and the manager will pass it to all stores managers during the merchandise meeting on next Tuesday.

Tomorrow will not be in the office, hence today have to rushed for complete the task by maximum. Tomorrow will not have any time for me to continue again. I have to wait until next Monday then only can continue my job again. I was do half my MEP in the office until 9.45pm today then only go back home. Very tiring now...

Sunday, September 07, 2008

BBQ Gathering

Yesterday was a gathering BBQ with my previous college coursemate at OUG. Yuvis's brother has moved in to a New house in OUG last few days, then it is a kind of open house gathering BBQ at her brother house. In additional, it is Winnie and Yuvis birthday celebration as well. Oh ya, mooncake festival is around the corner also, it is consider as mooncake festival gathering as well lahh..!

i has few month didnt keep in touch with all college friends already, this time received a sms from chui mun, and she told me this BBQ gathering on this Saturday, thats why i can't miss it, long time didnt see them, damn missing all buddies. Everyone are so busying to their work all the while, thus we are rarely got time to meet up each other for frequently. Well, sometimes if they have the gathering, i would try my best to join them as much as i could.

Hmm..! can't imagine that Yuvis brother's house is so big and luxury. If i not mistaken, its cost about RM 600,000 to RM 700,000 for one unit. It is a 3 storey terrence house, the design is great, and the furniture is even expensive that i saw. 42" Toshiba LCD at the living room, Pionner home theatre system, LG high end refrigerator, and the built in cabinet stoke and oven. If i not mistaken, it worth about RM 8k to RM 10k to this built in oven. Wow.. all expensive kitchen appliances and luxury furnitures... its really for all peoples dreams house as i can say about this.

MOreover, We also do saw Yuvis's eldest sister's husband driving with a RM 300K Toyota Alfred visited to the new house as well... Wow.. My dream car Toyota Alfred.. Wondering duno when can i get all this to myself..?

Work harder to earn more money..!

Friday, September 05, 2008

cant be relax even Off Day

Today is my off day, this is the replacement holiday for last Sunday. Because i was working at Seberang Prai Jusco on Sunday even though everyone is without working.

Well, even though today is off day, but never can relax also. Started from the morning until now, my phone is keep ringing... the stores side is keep calling, suppliers is keep calling, my manager also keep calling to me even though today is my off day. Really no life if working with Jusco.

I wish to switch off my handphone so No one can call me today. However, if my manager have any urgent need to get me immediately, then i would die if i switch off my phone.. really need someone tell me what to do..

I off 3 days until next MOnday, when i get back to office, my email must be Exceeded limit already 1.. all suppliers' email keeping came in, then Monday must be not enough time to reply to all 1.

Monday, September 01, 2008

ZOHAN Sitcom..!

Today is the replacement of yesterday merdeka holiday.
Washed my car in the morning, coz has 3 weeks didnt wah my car already...
And then go for cinema with kian sin, darry, and yung chew at MId Valley at 2pm.
Today we watched " Zohan ", it is a pakistan movie.
the actors in the movie mostly is the pakistanist...
this movie is a pakistan comedy...
It was so exciting and its involved with little homosexual story..
This movie length about 2 hours
At the begining, i was thinking to watch the " Qian Bu Gou Yon II "
But everyone are prefer to watch Zohan, its more exciting compare with this Singapore sitcom movie.. then not choice lohh, i have to follow also..
Well, ZOhan also not bad , its a nice movie as well..

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Going to SPC on tomorrow

Tomorrow have to wake up earlier because going to SPC on tomorrow morning, the van will depart from KL at 8am. This time going back to penang again is to spot check the SPC selling floor and also survey the target market and also to see how is the market niche for SPC. Well.. this time going is only 3 days 2 nite, doesnt like last 2 week were stayed there about 11 days then only can come back to KL. Anyway, even though Penang is not like KL so beautiful and clean, but the food there is really special and delicious... it is a Penang ethnic gourmet... i would think if those ppl who has come to penang and you should grab this opportunity to taste for all kind of the penang ethnic food in Penang..dont miss it..!

Next week come back to KL, and then still have to go for the store visit to many stores again... Well, Sept Month schedule has fully booked for the store visited. Cannot take leave, i have to wait until October then only can take my annual leave.

i have 12 days leave, 5 days will bring forward to next year. And the balance 7 days will try to arrange within October and the christmas eve loh.. Maybe October should find few days to go genting Highland to relax my mind.. been stressed myself in the office for 7 month already... really need a trip to breath some fresh air and relaxing my self already...


feelin- tired * Stressed

Monday, August 25, 2008

Came back to KL from SPC

Just came back from Seberang Prai Bandar Perda on last Saturday. Been stayed in the Penang Bandar Perda about 11 days. It was a tiring and torturing journey. I just go there about 3 days, then my gastric has started unfeeling well for 3days, and then getting high fever for 2 days, and then getting sore throat for 3 days again.. when i get back to KL, then started flu somemore..

I was see the doctor on last Monday, it was due to high fever. ANd then yesterday was see the doctor again due to sore throat and flu.. I suppose to take MC on last Tuesday, but i can't because of too many things havent finished, thus i have to push myself to work for that also.

SPC new opening on 22th August, however there is not many people are coming to Jusco during the new store opening. Sale also not really good enough.. We are still keep on going to implement our countermeasure to increase the sales. When sales not good, boss will always ask WHY..? Then we are the one to answer them of WHY & How..lohhh

Sigh..! really feeling so tiring and so stressing for my job.. Not much time for me to entertain myself also... Always work work work...only..!

TOday was left office at 7.10pm, it consider as early for me already for today... If normally, i will only leave office at 8pm or 9pm only... I told my manager that i not feeling well today because i still getting sore throat havent recover fully yet now, thats why i should go back early to take more rest to myself...

Still need to get back to SPC on this Friday, and come back to KL on next Monday.., Hmm... it was so many works to follow up when i get back to my office from SPC today. When i opened to my email and see, there was about 110 mails are waiting for me to read and reply.. WOw..! it was 2 weeks mail want me to read it all in one day, of course i can't finish it all by only one day lahh, today was just opened and answered about 30 email only, the balance will be read by tomorrow morning lahh... Coz today we still have the store emergency ordering submitted to HQ from all the outlets, hence we have to place our order to the supplier before we leave office. Otherwise, we will facing out of stock to deliver to the jusco customers..

Monday, August 11, 2008

kian Sin has joined to JJ today

At the end, kian sin has joined AEON today. This is his first day with AEON.CO, he is currently hired as a leasing officer for the entertainment & services leasing department. Today was about 5 new employees joining to AEON.CO.

To my surprise, within this 5 new persons who joining to Jusco today, there is one new pretty chick is the first day with AEON.co as well.. WEll, i not really sure which department is she taking at the moment, but as i heard from Kian sin saying that she is under the business development department, however i didnt aware of where is she sitting now...lolx

Tomorrow will try to see where she sitting, if got chance.. really wish to get her name and her telephone number...lolx

Friday, August 08, 2008

SPC for 12 days

My whole department members will be away from KL to Pinang Seberang Prai City pandan pedah on 13th August until 24th August 08. When i heard this news from manager Mr Woon, i was astonished at that moment.. Coz SPC is not a city, there are not much entertainment for us if we stay there for many days.. Some ppl are telling me there is a rural areas... some are telling me that SPC is a half city and half village places.. i duno, because i never go there before..

22nd August will be SPC new store opening, all the Jusco merchandiser will be going there for the shelve display planning, and the promotional planning arrangement over in SPC New Jusco Store.. WEll.. i really duno what we going to do in SPC for almost 12 days there, that is too long for me to stay over out station... My feeling is tighting up now, because i do not like to stay over out side for so many days, and i not really use to it as well..

We have no choice, because all the merchandisers are compulsory go there for the new shelve display arrangement at 2 weeks before the store opening.. we have to ensure all the display is on the shelve in proper way when the store opening on 22nd August 08. SOme of the merchandisers is going there for 5 days only, some is go there for 2 days only...

There was really made me felt headache was the display and the stock ordering for the SPC from our suppliers is always NIL delivery, we were keep re-issue the order to the suppliers for many times.. SOmetimes might making us confuse as well because we were confusing on which stock is ordered, and which display that we has ordered.. then we have to be very clear with what we did and what we had missed out, we should ensure all the stuff is on the right path...

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Bad Result for North Court sales

MId Valley North Court LCDs fair sales result was not good enough.. the fair started from Thursday until today is only 1 units samsung LCDs sold, 1 unit LG LCDs sold ,and 6 units of Panasonic plasma sold only. TOmorrow will be the last day for this North court roadshow..

Mr Woon sms me again in the evening. He want me to do countermeasure on that, COz upstair got Maybank promotion Esy payment scheme work together with Carrefour and Court Mamoth. Well, we can see their sales is doing quite well actually which i heard from the suppliers today.

EVen today is my rest day, but still getting annoying of my work. When sales not good, manager will pressure me again, ask me to do countermeasure to get back the sales. Of course, depends on my one person affordability is not enough, i still need to get some support from the suppliers to help me to boom up the sales together.

i called to the suppliers, Samsung said they will upgrade their voucher support on the 40" LCDs for every unit sold for tomorrow last day sales. But LG said they had offered the best for us already, hence they can't do any further support or better than this anymore. Panasonic has did their countermeasure strategy to us since yesterday, thus their sales was not too worst sofar/. However, we wish we can do even better for tomorrow last day sales in this NOrth court.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

30 July - 3 Aug North Court LCDs Fair

Today is the first day LCDs fair happening in Mid Valley North Court. There is 3 brand doing in this centre court fair currently. The promotion period for this fair is very short, it is 5 days long only..

Samsung , LG & Panasonic was set up their display on yesterday nite until this morning.. However, the display is not follow to the mechanic that we planned for this fair...

Samsung was the one who is happened so many problems.. We ordered the LCDs for this roadshow display, but they never can send it to the store on time..

Samsung was appeared a big problem to their auditor account department there... Samsung was suddenly block their transaction with Jusco.. It is just because of some payment figure doesnt tele with the invoice for the previous month such April and May 08. THey suddenly blocked their transaction with jusco, then never inform us early as we had ordered so many stock from them, we was owing customer so many units of pending samsung set, but they can't deliver their stock to Jusco, if Jusco can't receive the stock immediately, it must be problem to Jusco due to the complaining from customers..

Today is Mid valley North court LCDs fair, but Samsung still didnt deliver their stock as sufficient as what we need from them... We were really felt disappointed to the Samsung already, we been 3 times doing samsung fair, 3 time also appearing the similar problem 1.. ( SIgh )...haih

Panasonic and LG is okey with their stock delivery, and this time NOrth Court fair also didnt appearing any problem..( thanks god )

Today's North Court sales not that good, hopefully starting tomorrow will be better selling lahh...!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Stop writting her..!

No matter how hard that he hurted to her..
No matter how much of money that he cheated from her..
No matter how many time that he made her cried...
No matter how rude of he scolding on her...
No matter how many time that he quarrelled with her...
No matter how many time that he leave her alone...
NO matter how many time that he did cruel on her..
No matter how many time that he disappointed her..
No matter how many time that he sneaking smoking outside..
No matter how drunk of him came back from the PUb...
No matter how many gals that he play at outside...
No matter how rude of he treating her...
No matter how dirty of him...
No matter how long that he never came home...
No matter how much of money that he debting to the bank..
No matter how much of money that he borrow from her..
NO matter how many time he treating her like a hell..
No matter how bastard of he did on her..
No matter how many times that he use her money...
No matter how many times that he stole her money without permit..
NO matter how ,he tot RM40 is enough for her to survive for one month..
No matter how he never respected to her..
NO matter how he caused her family worrying about her...
NO matter he caused her loosing her lovely fren who surrounding..
NO matter how rude of the msg that he sms to her...
No matter how poor of him...
NO matter how bad of him...
NO matter how materialistic of him...
NO matter how many time that he owing her money..
No matter how many time that he used her money to buy everything..
NO matter how many time that he made her suffered...
NO matter how many time that he abandone her...
NO matter how many time that he just caring himself more than her..

At the end , she will still go back to him
At the end , she still choosing him...
At the end , she still right beside him..
At the end , she still never blaming on him..
At the end , she still forgiving him...
At the end , she still loving him..
At the end , she still put her trust on him..
At the end , she still sacrifice everything for him..
At the end , she still never die her heart on him..
At the end , she still full of expecting on him...
At the end , she still caring on him...
At the end , she still keep on calling him..
At the end , she still did everythin for him if he need..
At the end , she still like a stupid stag with him..
At the end , she still dont bother her family objection..
At the end , she still always go out with him...
At the end , she still willing to sacrifice everything for him..
At the end , she still can accept of what he did..

I felt i'm like a stupid, I was spent all my time, my money ,my petrol ,my effort , my energy ,my family day, And even sacrifice my rest time and just to helped her
as much as i could, tried to pull her out from her devil life... I was spent my whole day, ONe person go to help her shifted her things from 8th floor to another building 6th floor... started from 10.30am until 1.30am mid nite.. And she just thinking like this is my responsiblity, and she also didnt aware of why do i need to help her so much..?

Everytime when she quarrel with him, and she initially will called me and cried on the phone.. And everytime when she cried, and she will find me for help.. everytime when she have difficulty... and she will still looking me for help.. everytime when she have something that couldn't seattle herself, she will still come to find me..

Well, i will never know at the end that she still go back to that fella who had cheated her so much money...I can't imagine that this fella can stole her money from her account without her permission and just left RM 40 only in her account for her one month pocket money.. of course, it never can be enough for her to use even one day eat one meal only... Seeing her so pity, i was definitely helped her with my biggest effort , and saving her from her struggle life...

Duno why, the old man use to saying that :" if the guy Not bad enough, the gal never love " Today i eventually understand this meaning already... coz everything had experienced with myself in my real life here...

I use to ask myself, never thought i can met up with such a gal and experience with such a story in my life.. Really cant believe it really happened to my real life.. felt so hurt.. and so irritating.. when i think back of my previous, i wish i could never met her in my life at the begining till the end...

I tell myself, today is the last day that i write about her, start on tomorrow onwards... i will never allow myself to write her in my blog anymore... Everything should be trash it, and delete all my memory from my life starting from this second..
Stop writting her..!


feelin-irritate @

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Relaxing Day..

today was slept until 11pm then only wake up.
Had my breakfast until 11.30am, and then fetch my mom to work..
It was really a tiring tiring day today..
Coz been many days didnt sleep well..
get flu and sore throat for few days on last few days as well..
Today just as usual, washed my car after came back from Jusco..
and then practice my guitar, listen to my CDs..
and sleep again at 4pm until 6pm..
ANd then went to Salon for my hair cut at Stacey Salon..
And then had my dinner with my brother for Nasi Lemak..
ANd then sit infront of the Tv and watching to Xin Guang Da Dao

Saturday, July 26, 2008

interview with Gallery Designer of Ornaments

Was received a called from one of the lighting & furniture firm on last Sunday. The firm name GDO sdn bhd. Means Gallery designer of ornaments.. The operation manager Mr Yong was saw my updated resume on the jobstreet on last week through online, thus he has asked me for interview, He is currently looking for an outlet manager, and he would seek for me whether i'm interested to this position or not..

Well, today had interviewed with Yong in the evening when i finished my worked at 6pm, and then i rushed to see him at Mid Valley just now.. After a casual met up with him in Mid Valley, he suddenly telling me that he would not seek me for this outlet manager position when he understand my current knowledge and current experience, he would like to get me as an executive in their Head office for either marketing or operation position...

Coz he is currently looking for one of the marketing and one of the operation executive to assist him on all outlets & corporate sales in operation and marketing side. Hence, after he interviewed with me, and he said he would need to go back to his office to analyse again of my experience and background knowledge, and then put me into a suitable position to their firm if i hired...

Well, all this is just a first saying from him lah, not confirm yet.. he said if i pass, and he would call me for the second interview again in his head office... I'm not sure whether i should change the job or not, i found myself quite loving to my current employment in the merchandising line in Jusco also...

Anyway, just See how..lahh!

Thursday, July 24, 2008

sales for Mid Valley Jcard day..

Today is MId Valley & Tmn University Jcard Day, this year budget for Mid Valley is quite high, RM 600,000 for Mid Valley, while RM 100,000 for Tmn University. Well, both outlet was abled to achieved the target at the end. Both store's multi media department sales also had achieved.

Panasonic was sold out about 40 units plasma & LCD
SONY was sold out about 30 units++ LCDs..
Samsung about 15 units LCD
LG about 10 units LCD & plasma
Philips only sold 3 units LCDs...

Overall sales result is consider Good loh..!

Today has proved that we doing Panasonic fair at the entrance during the Jcard Day, its really can help to sell more units of plasma and LCD a lot.. Hopefully next year will having the same result as this year we did...

TOday was a tiring day from the fair start until the end...today must sleep early to recharge my stamina and ready for tomorrow work....

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Sick..!

Suppose doctor has given me one day MC for today.
however it was due to many jobs still havent finish on yesterday,
thus i still going back to office continue my work in the afternoon.
I took half day MC only..
Today has prepared Seberang Prai City Display ordering,
New item list in, and do some arrangement of the roadshow event..
Actually manager need to discuss about the promotional item for SPC opening with me after 7.30pm, but i really cannot help anymore because of getting flu, my whole body is feel so tiring and i also cannot make up my mind as well,,

Monday, July 21, 2008

Release...!

手放开
作曲:方文良
我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开城门对着夜幕发呆
看着往事
一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱
我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
眼睁睁看情感慨
不能给你未来
我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来
伤已悄在
分开也是另一种明白
我给你
最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走就有人来
我的心是一个车牌
写着等待
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
哽咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖
还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

Read your story...!

Eventually, she shifted out from 8*8*26, and now she had moved to No.761. I was spent my whole day of Saturday to helped her to shift everything from the 8th floor to another apartment 6th floor. Urghh... all my muscle was squeezed, and felt so tiring when the next day working in the office..

I was really spent all my time, all my petrol.. all my savings to help her as much as i can, i didnt think too much... just to help her and save her out from her torturing life only.. My heart is feel so sore.. What will u feel if you seeing your lovely gal are in the depressing life, that kind of feeling is causing you so uncomfortable..truly , madly ..deeply..!

I was never thought that i can help her to move her things from her old place to this new place from 10.30am until 12.30am so long hours. Wow, even though she is just only one person living over this room, but her things was so..so..so..many, and very very heavy.. Haih.., no chance to feel regret, coz i was promised her to help her until she everything is alright, then only i can leave.. hence i was not dare to tell her that i want to go home even though i felt so tired and so sleepy on that moment...

Well, today was sick already, sore throat and getting flu currently.. was see the doctor when after came back from the office..

Tonite was talked to her on the phone again for almost one hour. Wah, my phone bill will not be so cheap anymore for the next month when biling to my house.

Duno why, i use to tell myself not to bother her anymore since she always hurted me so bad without awaring by herself also. However, i will never can control myself to pick up her phone or open her msg when she sent to me.. Urghh, she can torture me anytime, and she can delighting me anytime as well... it is just like injected poison to me already... she is controlling my emotion now..

There was many time i was to hate her, but the next day i might thinking back to her again... when i want to leave her, but the next day i will still seeing her again... Duno why the god is always teasing me like such happening...

Can i see the brigther future in my life for the next Day..?

Monday, July 14, 2008

Horrible story

A horrible story happened to her this few days again . She was lost her money, lost her bf, lost everythin... and now she is only have the job with her at the moment.. Never thought that "he" is the lyer... take all her money and then go away from her now.. She was cried because of she was lost all her money to him..

She was called to that fella's mom and telling all this situation to his mom. However, his mom just telling her that this fella is a bastard fella... its not worth for her to love him since from begining. Well, never thought this fella was cheated quite many gals since previously, and so many gals was chasing him for money back in his johor residence all the time, and made his family can't even can stay peafully..

Well, i was accompany her for the whole day on last Sunday, as her friend i should try my best to help her as much as i could.. TOday she is never taking any leave to rest at her home, she was came to office to work until 6pm.. She is looking so poor now, i felt so pity to her as i saw everythin of what had happened to her.

She very trust me, she ask me to help her to change her Maybank2u user name and password, coz that bastard fella is so terribly that he go online to click her account to transfered out all her money..Urrghh..! what a bullshit and bastard fella that i seen, really " MemperSiasuikan " kita orang lelaki.. really never seen a guy acting like him before.. i'm looking down to him of what he did for all this.


She told me that this fella was sms her again during she working in the office today.. He keep apology to her, and try his best want to get her back to him by using all this sweet sweet words message.. She felt so scary to him now, because she has lost all her money to him aleady, and duno what he still coming back want to cheating from her now.. She asked for help again from me... She asked me to help her to keep her bracelet , keep all her diamond accesorries... because she scare he will come back to steal all this from her again..

i quite worrying when i promised to her about this, because it is a diamond accessories, if i couldn't take care all of it well, and accidentally lost it with myself, then i have to responsible for it already...

WEll, since she dont have anyone can be trust already, hence i just promised her that i'll help her loh...God blessing you..Gal.! Stand Up

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Damn headache today..!

Headache... headache...headache..., really headache. In the month of July & August, almost all the suppliers are doing promotion for their brand in Nation Wide, of course its including in Jusco also..! Well, LG do promotion, SONY do promotion, Pensonic do price change, Panasonic do promotion, Philips do promotion, Samsung also do promotion , all brand also do promotion. The package is such as buy one LCD free DVD or purchase with purchase of RM20 for additional DVD player. Samsung & LG 40" inch LCD is giving of Free hometheathre which very good deal..

All the promotional package is really causing me so confuse. It was so so so complicated on keyed into the system of all the promotional items and the cost. We have to create to so many new code for the free gift items as well. Samsung & Panasonic is even need to do the price change mark down somemore..

An incident happened to me today, i was created a new code for the SONY DVD player when purchase of 32" inch LCD, allow to add RM20 for additional DVD player.. After i created the code, i sent email to all store to inform them. However, tonite was received so many call from the stores side regarding on this DVD code. The system was so confusing, when the cashier scanned the item, the system appearing of RM20 in the cashier for the DVD.. Urghh,,,,! i quite struggle when i hearing the phone called from the store side regarding on this matter. I had told them , when customer purchase only DVD player, they must use the original code for the DVD..then the price will be shown RM199 which is original price... However if the customer purchase the SONY LCD with PWP of the additional DVD, then the store must use another new code...

Duno why, almost most of the stores was calling me regarding on this matter just now. Really frustrating now.. THe Sunway store manager was called to my senior manager on this matter, and he was called to asking whats happening to the price changed. I explained to my senior manager on this matter, i was actually inform all the store how to use the item code for the transaction already, but the section leader are never can act wisely with what we informed them everytime.

SIgh*** haih..! MR Woon ( manager ) also called me regarding on this matter just now. Well, i think i should delete that new code , and find out another solution for the SONY promotion when customers purchase with purchase of the LCD and the DVD player now..

Tomorrow Sunday morning i should wake up earlier and go back to office to do price change leh...! otherwise, my phone will keep on ringing for the whole day i think so..Urrghh..!

feelin-stress

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Ending My Story..!

I told myself never ever call her again... never see her again... never talk to her again from last week.. However, duno why... that she suddenly was called me again and tell me that she is having problem with "him" again recently... She came and see me, and expressed her feeling to me....When i looked at her face...and i felt that she is looking so bad this few days.. She told me that she couldn't sleep well recently because of she was quarrel again with "Him" and He is playing Disappear for almost 3 to 4 days, and she can't even could get him or sms him through the phone...

Today i'm received her sms in the morning again, she said she can't wait to see him immediately, and she want to find him to get his answer of why he is diasppear for few days without any news from him...When i received her msg, i straight away change my clothes and then drove my car to her house to see her again... She beg me to fetch her to find "Him" in the afternoon... she asked me whether i know where is UTM or not, i told her that i duno.. thus, i was called to my friends to get where is the location.. Luckily, shoo guan was abled to get me the answer.. hence i finally able to help her to get his college already.. "Urrghh.. i can't believe that she is with him for almost 10 month already, but she is never know where is he actually studying at... she still keep on calling to his classmate or colleague to get the location...

Well, we finally get the college its not name of UTM... its name of College Optima, it is one of the college which linking to UTM only , this college is located in Subang SS15... BUt He was never telling the truth to Her, maybe he dont want to let her know where he is studying actually loh.. SHe told me that he is studying for master currently, however when i called to my friend, shoo guan was telling me that this college is only teaching for diploma course such executive diploma in engineering & management, diploma in hotel management and etc .. i asked shoo guan whether there got master or not, nonetheless shoo guan telling me that all the info that he giving to me is trough the leaflet that he has on his hand 1..this college is dont have any master course could be taking over here.. Well, i didnt think much of that, i just brought her to go inside the college and tried ask the receptionist whether "he" is studying in that college or not... Too my surprised, the receptionist was answered her he is upstair in the class on that moment...

The receptionist told her that the class will finished at 5.30pm, But we were already there at 4.30pm.. hence she is just sitting inside the college waiting for him.. And then i just sitted alone at Old town with alone while waiting for her also..

5.30pm , he really came out from that college.. i was saw her follow at his back, the guy was looked so cool, when i look at this pity gal never release this fella even though how terrible that he hurted her, but she still really loving him so deeply... She said that guy is driving with Kancil 660Ex, but when this fella came out from the college, he was driving with a Saga iswara.. Urghh, his car was just parked infront of the college only. When i bringing her passby 3 times over the front street there, but she was never noticed it... He had changed his car already, no more with Kancil 660Ex anymore, but she is never know.. She and i was like a stupid drove the car passby there for so many time already then only know he is there...

Today was happened so many things on me, i getting aware that i'm not the first priority in her heart from the begining until the today, i was just a " standby " which she would like to keep me for her if she can't get the love from him anymore, then only i can become her choice.. I felt so diappointed and felt so sad that myself was getting lie from her from the first day until today.. I was offered her my 100% heart to her, but all the while i'm only the second place in her heart, she was always caring to what "he" feeling more than caring to how i'm feel.. Even though she was unawared that she hurted me so deeply, but she never know...
I becomes so Numb, i dont wish to see her anymore, coz i felt that she is never treating me with truthfull, everytime she want to see me is the time when she need my help... everytime she want to see me is the time when she quarrely with him... everytime she want to see me is the time when she is crying becoz of miss him so much... everytime she want to see me is the time that the fella go out drinking beer at outside and leave her alone... I found myself is a stupid fella why never want to being cruel like him, just dont care and dont bother her anymore even how hard she called me..

I keep on find the answer to myself, but i never find that which time meeting her is because she miss me then only find me 1... THe answered was NO..NO..NO..! My heart is so pain.. so pain and so pain... i tell myself, this time i should act once cruel to her, and i tell myself never ever contact her anymore, because i really couldn't help it anymore... Hopefully she never find me again also... each time when i saw her, my heart will feel pain one time...


I getting aware that i'm really a most stupid fella in the world who falling in love with a gal which is not belongs to me... By today, i getting aware of that ppl use to saying : if the man not bad enough, the gal dont love " In the case of even how cruel of he hurted her so bad, but she is still never can live without him.. I understand a lesson from this case, i should act as cruel as i can if i really want a person who can love me as much as she could...


My story is end... end... end, i dont wish to have any chance to continue with this kind of story anymore... really getting tiring already, i found my love on her is so tough.. so difficult... never will easy for me... I should really give myself a break now... Leven, Leven.. Leven... dont put your time on her again, stand up .. stand up... stand up.... dont think again... dont think again... your job is your first priority now... not her anymore... wake up... wake up...! Stop thinking her anymore... dont put yourself in sad story already... You can find a better life even dont have her with you...


Motivate : Tomorrow will be better...

Saturday, July 05, 2008

With her again..!

She was cried again... because she feel disappointed with what He did to her this few days... finally she couldn't help it anymore, and then she said she would like to let go this Love already. I was accompany her for a whole nite till very late until she getting better, then only i going back home...


waiting hair dry...

Monday, June 30, 2008

She Msg me again..!

Last Saturday, She said she will never call me or even sms me anymore. However, this morning suddenly received a msg from her again. Of course, all the content inside the msg is never can be sweet content anymore.. She said she will leave Jusco, never come back again.. and she wish me all the best on my career. Well, i just replied her with thank you lohh...

About 6pm, when i using the printer to printing my ordering check list in the office, suddenly was saw her appears at the photostat machine. The distance between us is quite near. I was give her a glance, but she didnt aware of i looking at her.. Well, suddenly a colleague from another department, he suddenly came over to me.. and he also waiting for the printing of his check list on that moment. Thus, i was turn my side to him and chit chat with him and didnt look at Her again...

Tonite about 9pm, she was sms me again.. She said : Are u still in the office now..? dont stay too long in the office, A msg from a concern colleague." Well, her msg content was suddenly warm... but suddenly made me felt so cold..! She called me again after i replied her msg. But she was didnt talked too much to me when on the phone.. Hence, i called her back with my phone.. And then i noticed that she is still havent leave the office yet, she said she still waiting " him" come to fetch her home at that time.. Wow.. really can't believe i was saw her left the office at 7.30pm just now, while i left office at 8pm... i already reached home and eating my mom cooked gourmet already, but she still at outside now.

She was cried again when i talked to her on the phone, duno whats happened to her and him just now.. suddenly will sms me again since she said she will never write me any msg again.. Quite curious to her, i asked her.. but she dont wish to tell me...

She off her phone totally.. made me can't call her anymore. But i still keep calling her non-stop. Coz i worrying that she is still at outside now...WEll, after she got back to home, she opened her phone again. I was succeed to called her agagin... And i was talked to her for 15 mins, then i ensure that she is safe now.. then only i close my phone.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Break Up..!

Finally, i HAD spoke to her today that i wants to stop my relationship with her. Well, i know i hurted her deeply today. But i have no choice , just can do it like this to her. Its because of Short pain is even better than long pain. If i didn't stop my relationship with her, i will always felt so uncomfortable and duno why many time i was felt jealous suddenly because that i'm the second place in her heart, not the first place. Well, who is can really tahan for always being the second place in your most lovely person's heart leh../?

She will accompany "him" to a seminar in subang Sheraton hotel. She told me that she will going to stay a nite in the hotel with him on that day, second day then only coming back. Today i was feeling frustrating... so desperate to see her immediately, however she just can said Sorry to me that she not allow to accompany me for today... Well, i started to felt that if your gal friend telling you that she cant accompany you when the time that you need her the most, because of she want to accompany to another guy for that day... what do you think you will do..? Of course, i felt so disappointed to her but i never dare to tell her straight about my feeling... even though i felt angry with her, but i never will blame on her as well... i dont even dare to scold at her.. maybe this is what i already love her so much gua,,,! tak sampai hati to shout at her also...

12.40pm, Noon, Saturday..She was replied me with her sms, saying that today is her last msg to me, and she will never msg me anymore in future.. Hmm..! feeling quite pain when hearing she msg me like this,,, but, this means she absolutely had agreed to stop her relationship with me now.. maybe this is a good news also... perhaps i dont need to everytime when think of her one time, and my heart will feel pain for one time. And she also dont need to force herself to make a decision for a dillemma situation as well..

Anyway, i would wish "her" & " him" can happy forever... never ever will appear a third person like such of me to interrupt their life in future again.. GOD BLESSING..

Begins from today onwards, i would start up my new life with myself already... never go to think about What" Love".." Love" .."Love" anymore.. experienced one time already, not dare to begins another again so promptly now... maybe i should give myself a break to think what is my plan for the future.. WEll, my current job scope is so harder for me, sometimes it can made me can't even breath also... THe most important should i think currently is to think how and find out what are the solution to make my career better...


feelin- Despair..!

Friday, June 27, 2008

struggle with my life..!

Recently quite struggling to myself, i struggle to my work, i struggle to my life, i struggle to my love path as well. Everyday is stayed in the office for my work until very late then only can go home. Since Wayne had left AEON.CO, my job is getting harder and difficult now. Even though, i would still push myself to finish all the task as much as i could. Sometimes, i will feel tiring and sleepy when i'm work alone in the office till so late.

Most of the time when i felt stressing or feel tiring, i would suddenly think of "Her" on my mind, and i found myself so..so..so.. desperating to see her immediately everytime when i thinking of her. However, i cannot sms her... i cannot call her....and i can't even can see her when the time i need her.. this kind of feeling is.. unusual... uncomfortable... and feeling like so painful in my heart..

She said dont sms her and dont even can call her if she stay at home.. WEll, sometimes i will accidentally sms her without aware that she is staying at home.. Then, she will comes to remind me on the second day when she see me in the office..She said : " why you suddenly sms me ? luckily is i holding the phone, if let "him" saw your msg, then it must be terrible already.." Urghh,,! when the time i heard she saying like such... my heart is feeling.. so pain.. so pain...so pain...! But i can't show her my sadness face..!

You know..! when the time you listen to your most lover person who telling you all this thing... will you can just feels like nothing.. and never be feel sad on all this words saying...? I think there is 10 out 10 person i ask... all ten will answer me the same loh..! WHo can tahan..?

I still remember the Monday nite, i worked until 10pm in the office, going back very late. When i on my way going home on the MRRII highway, " She " was suddenly sms me again that she still havent had her dinner yet on that time.. Well, i quite surprise that every monday she will go to her Spanish language class until 8.30pm, and then she and "him" will go for dinner together normally.. but duno why she was called me suddenly.. When i received her sms, i straight away called her back to ask her "why..? From the phone, i was heard she crying.. and her voice is heard differently on that time... She didnt talk too much with me on the phone, she said she hope to see me on that moment, hence i just turned my way to Cheras again...

When i get to her house, she is still with the morning office dressing... i quite surprise that so late already but she is still havent taken her shower yet.. When she get into my car, and i looked at her.. and tried to ask her whats happening with her just now..! When she answering my question, she was started crying again, i holding tight to her hand, and keep giving her my condolance...!

I duno why, every time when she quarrel with "him", and when she is need me, i will definitely didnt think so much, straight away go to find her and accompany her.. However, most of the time when i need her the most, but she will never can right beside me or sms with me.. feeling heart pain.. I always struggle myself, maybe this is the time to release her now, dont keep continue with this kind of relationship with her anymore.. Coz i found myself is really really really cannot tahan again.. everytime when i think of her but she wasn't beside of me, i would never can felt comfortable with that kind of feeling on this...

As i said, many time i was tried to tell her that i dont want to continue this kind of relationship with her anymore, but she always treating it like i simply saying only.. and she will never want me to give up to her so easily... Nonetheless, she is never can make any decision whether she would choose who... Everytime when she quarrel with "him", and she will definitely tell me that she dont want to continue her relationship with " him" anymore since he keep on hurted her so deeply. Then after this, she will tell me alot of her plan that how would she living without him in the coming days.. and she said she dont want to go back to him again. Then, i am keep thinking how to help her on everything if she need my hand.. But at the end, she will still going back to him, at the end she still can tahan with what "he" did on her, she still can treating like nothing was happens before..

Urrghh,,! I was found myself given "her" so many chances already, she only will find me when she is quarrel with "him", and she only will find me when " he" is not around.. Nevertheless, i never wish i want this to myself anymore, i hope my most lovely one can find me anytime, she can always around me , she can always beside me... and i also can find her anytime when i want to need her..!


feelin- tightly
I really getting tiring and no more energetic on playing this kind of 3 person game again, maybe i should give myself a break now... i dont wish to continue anymore.......................Give Up..!! "ting".. "ting"

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Heavy tasking

feeling so tired this few days.. everyday is work until 9pm to 10pm then only can go home. Since my senior had leave the company on last Friday, thus my job is getting more and more now..Everything have to follow up with my own. Last time if i cannot finish so many task in one day, my senior will do it himself. But now, he had left already, hence i have no one can help me now.. everything have to do it by my own in the coming days. Currently i'm still new in the company.. then many works i'm not really can settle it so quickly, i have to take more time to finish all the task in the office... all my team members is work until 8.30pm, but i should work until 10pm lohh.. Urghh..! very tiring.. so tiring... super tiring... cannot tahan..


feelin-yawning

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Never can understand what she thinking of..!

When i on my way going home from office at 10pm, suddenly received a sms from her again, she said she still havent eat dinner, and she want me to have dinner with her.. hence i turn my way back towards to cheras from Ampang. I was thinking why suddenly she will call me up to go for dinner with her when the time is so late already.

When i reached her there, i was saw her standing beside the street, she told me that she had quarrel again with Him, he was just leave her one person there, and he is went out to somewhere else already.. Wow..! how can this fella did this to Her so ungentlemen. Well, she request of me to bring her go out to find him. She said she want to see what he did at outside, and she want to ask him to go home if she get him from the outside..

I dunno why i so busy body, and i was really drove my car all the way out to help her to find Him. We been to the cheras area' nite Pub, and then she is looking around him over that area. However, we couldn't get him also, and then she tried called to "his" friends to ask where is him. And his friend told her that they had changed their place to second round at Karaoke in leisure mall already.. But suddenly said they are in the Cafe which located behind the Maluri Jusco there.. Urgghh,..! what the hell with this fella.. simply simply point us the way... this fella tot we are stupid , he tot we will let him to simply playing fool around on us..!

Finally, we couldn't get where is him also, on that time she was feeling tiring & sleepy already, hence i just sent her home without have our dinner anymore. After i sent her home, then i just go home as well. When i passedby the mamak stall outside the bus terminal , then i just stopped there to had a Roti Planta and a glass of Teh Ais with alone. The time is too late already, hence i didnt eat too much or too heavy , coz i want to sleep already mahh..! And she was just had a cup of CUP MEE at her home alone also.

Suddenly she sms me again that she can't sleep, then she wish to hear my voice on that moment, so i was called her with my handset during the lately nite. I talked to her on the phone, she is still feeling so sad on that moment, thus i keep on console her from the phone. I was talked to her about 20 minutes, then she is fall asleep suddenly... then i just stop my conversation..and go to my bed also!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Can't understand...

Dunno why, last Sunday i was promised "him" that i would release "her", and never contact " her " anymore. Second day, I was actually talked to " Her " about this again as well.. However, she was never really take it as seriously as what i spoke to her. She is just like take it as easy as nothing is happening. Well, i dont really know what she actually thinking currently.. she said she cannot just leave him and togeher with me immediately now.. Well, sometimes i can't really help it so well since i dont like to share a gal with another guy. Thats why, so many time i was thought myself want to release her and never involve myself in her life anymore, maybe this is the better way to make myself feels better..

Today i was go out again with her to Sunway Pyramid in this morning. This is the first time that i go shopping very early in the morning. We were reached there at 11am.. and then we go home at 1.45pm. We were just hanging around here for 2 to 3 hours only.. When we reached Sunway Pyramid, we first went to have some food at Uncle Lim Kopitiam. And then just go to take the sticker photo with Her loh.. Ha..lolx this is the first time that i try this sticker photo. I dont really know how to use it when standing inside the camera machine.. then She is the only person who familiar on clicking on this camera machine.

First time on shooting this sticker photo, i was not use to it sofar, thats why every shoots of the photo also not looking nice on me..Anyway, that kind of feels is i never tasted it before in my life..lolx

i was always thinking, what should i really do on that whether i have to maintain my current relationship or stop this relationship immediately. Nonetheless, everytime when i was spoke to her about this, and she is never allow me to release her 1.. She is always just telling me dont ever release her and i should give her time to decide what she have to do on this.. there was so many time even i made her felt disappointed because i want to stop my relationship with her because of "him" given me the warning, but she was never that it as serious and put it in her mind 1... even everytime she is looks angry with me for a short while, but she will initially sms or contact me again after a while 1. sometimes i might think that if she get angry on me already , then she might maybe dont need to make choices in between me and him again loh.. she can just concern on him one person is enough, and i also dont need to suffer again on the feeling of missing a person that impossible to be with me..

Aik.. wednesday is She's spanish course exam, i wish her all the best on her exam..Gambateh..

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Ipoh Stock take

This week was passed so fast.. today is already friday, and tomorrow is extra rest day on saturday.. I was went to the stock take in Ipoh on Tuesday & Wednesday, and get back to KL on Thursday Noon..

I was being the double auditor for this stock take in Ipoh. First day is audit the backroom gondola, and then the second day is to audit the selling floor gondola for the whole day from morning till evening 7.30pm.

Well, it wasn't difficult to me, i was just treated this stock take as my holiday trip in Ipoh only. Even though, but still feels tiring on here because was stand and audited so many of gondola for the whole day..

Everything was just right in this stock take in ipoh this time. But then the accomodation is not really good enough to us. We was accomodated two nite in Heritage hotel. THis hotel is not really with the good condition for their rooms. Even the bed is appearings the bad smell. Toilet also looking very old already. In the First day i was too tiring, thus i was slept pretty nicely until the morning. However for the second day, i wasn't having a good sleeping for the whole nite. I was kept on awake when half sleeping, Dunno Y..!

Erm..! two days breaksfast is also the same assortment.. same taste.. same colours.. not much different. Anyway, the food is still okey for me..just nice..!

We left from the Ipoh towards to KL at 9.15am. Suppose is 9am will departure from Ipoh 1, however it was due to i late having my breakfast at the hotel there, hence i was took longer time to finished it. While everyone is just sitting on the bus and waited for me only..lolx " Sorry lahh guys, i also dont wish to do that on you 1.. but duno y is it suddenly happening to me. Hopefully next time won't repeat the same mistake again.."


feelin- Tired

Sunday, June 15, 2008

unforgetable day..!

15th June 08 , Sunday, 2.45pm.. i had promised to that fella (he) throught the phone conversation that i would never find 'Her" again.. My heart is so pain ,feeling so hard.. and feeling so uneasy.. is there anyone who is stop your relationship with your most lovely one is still steady enough 1.? i hope to find someone who could show me the direction of wat to do now...My mind is so frustrating in this minutes, and i duno what to do to calm down myself not to think of all this sadness news again...

Its so cruel and need very strong courage to choose to stop the relationship with our most lovely one...However, i have no choice, i'm the one who is appearing at not the right time, not a right place, not a right moment currently... i feeling so hard that the gal who u lovely the most is never can right beside you all the while when u wish to see her, that kind of feeling is never can be tasted as good enough..! its feeling so bitter...!

Well..today had spoke with the guy, then now my brain is like putted down a big stone already, but how come my heart is keep on feeling upside down now...is it i had putted my Love on her so deeply now.. is release her consider as the right decision for me..?

I think release is the right choice... because i can never accept my most lovely one which always beside a guy that i not really like him 1... DUno why, maybe is that guy is having a far different with me, thats why the first impression when i look at him, i already can't accept. Well, i cannot judge anyone since i have no right to judge anyone also. However, when the person that u are unlike which always beside "her" then, u will never can control yourself automatically to judge the different between us.. Life is always like such..

just now i was received his sms to me, and he keep pointing that he is the best, its seems like there is no one can be better than him already.. Wow.. really cannot tahan him with this kind of the message given to me.. Well, i just answer him " Good " coz i dont want to talk too much with him since he is the person who is only think himself is the best, if i keep on saying too many thing with him... i will just make him lost his temper only...


Why " Love " is always make ppl feeling so hard... why "Love" is always torture ppl like such..? I derived and tasted a sweet & precious time with all my first time in a very short moment, however now is force to lost everything of this in one day. What is that ...?

feelin- Frust... Annoy...Depress